Well then.....

I had an amazingly boring and uneventful weekend. Well not entirely as I did celebrate my divorce on friday, went to a baby shower on saturday, and had a nice turkey dinner on sunday, but other than that I did nothing. And while I thought that's what I wanted..... I couldn't wait to get back to work yesterday. Yes, I am crazy. But I digress.....

I ended up with a lot of time on my hands to think about life and such. After having yet another crazy episode on friday regarding S, I have come to the conclusion that I need to become less available to him. (thanks again Sis) And I may just be smart to take a little break. It's not that I get messed up when I see him but more that when I don't talk to him for a day or two I get all crazy. I like to know my plans so when he says let's do something on such and such a day, I plan around that. But, the last couple times he has jammed and that's when I get hurt. I miss being a priority.

So yesterday when we had tentative plans when he came back from Victoria and he was supposed to let me know at some point what was going on and he didn't, I went ahead and made plans without him. And it felt great. A little part of me wishes he had called at some point and I could have told him "too bad - got plans", but he didn't. Of course. I still haven't heard from him actually - maybe my crazy episode on friday finally did it? I guess we'll see.



On another note... I cannot believe that a month later my posts are still focused on S. That's it.... done done done. I solemnly vow that there will not be another. Well I sure hope it's uneventful enough that I can make that reality.