Boys......

Well I am on the brink of something that I am hesitant to say would be a relationship. Ack. But there are two of them - how do you like them apples?

First there is boy #1 who I met back in August. Have been smitten with him ever since but things have progressed very slowly (which is good btw) since with us spending more time together as of late. There is just something about him. There are many voices in my head saying things would never work etc.. blah blah blah... but I cannot help the attraction. He makes me laugh and if you know me at all then you know that I'm a sucker for that. I love the way I feel with him and how I get butterflies when I'm going to see him. But is it enough? Who knows. Recently I told him of said feelings, something I didn't think I would do so I am very proud of myself. And apparently he is starting to feel the same. He just takes a lot longer with things .... kind of a slow burn he is. A thinker. Thinks everything through. Basically I just need to learn some patience.

Boy #2 is already planning the future. And when this has happened in any past relationships (well those in the last year anyways) I have usually freaked out and ruined the relationship somehow. For some reason I am not freaking out. I can't stop thinking about boy #1 but #2 is really very sweet and I look forward to exploring things further.

So the problem lies in where my decision goes. Do I go for the one I'm more into or the one that's more into me? Do I hold out in hopes for boy #1 and maybe have nothing happen or do I go with the one that I could have a relationship with? Am I really ready? Hmmmmm ... so many questions.

Later tonight or tomorrow I will post what my numerology book says about each boy - numerology has been so accurate in my life so far.