Just a quick post to wish everyone a Merry Christmas!
Tonight I'm celebrating christmas with S....then tomorrow I'm finishing up last minute things before I leave on sunday morning. Hoping to be on the road at 5 or 6 in the am......wish me luck!
Maybe I'll even post again before the new year. Har.
Friday, December 22, 2006
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Proof I'm alive and kicking!
Things have been pretty busy since the move....the move from hell I should add but we're all in and slowly getting settled in. It's nice having roomate(s) even if one of them hasnt' even moved her crap in yet!
Not much time to post but I copied this from Refinnej:
Three things that scare me: spiders, heights, knives
Three people who make me laugh: S, my nephews, the writers of The Class
Three things I love: family, friends, the color red
Three things I hate: bills, stupid people, bad drivers
Three things I don't understand: racism, homophobia, quantum psychics
Three things on my desk: my makeup, pictures, vitamins
Three things I'm doing right now: updating my blog, drinking my coffee, watching the news
Three things I want to do before I die: live to my 100th birthday, be debt free, have a baby
Three things I can do: make people laugh, spell, multitask
Three things you should listen to: your gut, family & friends, your heart
Three things you should never listen to: ignorant people, racists, people who preach
Three things I'd like to learn: to ski, how to take better pictures, another language
Three favorite foods: ice cream, eggs, cheese
Three beverages I drink regularly: water, coffee, diet pepsi
Three TV shows I watched as a kid: Facts of Life, Silver Spoons, Three's Company
Not much time to post but I copied this from Refinnej:
Three things that scare me: spiders, heights, knives
Three people who make me laugh: S, my nephews, the writers of The Class
Three things I love: family, friends, the color red
Three things I hate: bills, stupid people, bad drivers
Three things I don't understand: racism, homophobia, quantum psychics
Three things on my desk: my makeup, pictures, vitamins
Three things I'm doing right now: updating my blog, drinking my coffee, watching the news
Three things I want to do before I die: live to my 100th birthday, be debt free, have a baby
Three things I can do: make people laugh, spell, multitask
Three things you should listen to: your gut, family & friends, your heart
Three things you should never listen to: ignorant people, racists, people who preach
Three things I'd like to learn: to ski, how to take better pictures, another language
Three favorite foods: ice cream, eggs, cheese
Three beverages I drink regularly: water, coffee, diet pepsi
Three TV shows I watched as a kid: Facts of Life, Silver Spoons, Three's Company
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Packing hell.....
Well I'm officially in full blown packing hell! T-minus 9 days till moving day. I've finally started the kitchen.... which is the worst room in my opinion. I need to start moving some furniture around to make room for all these damn boxes. Ack. I have far too much stuff which never ceases to amaze me as I've gotten rid of so much over the last few years of all the moving.
Speaking of that... I should get back to it.
Speaking of that... I should get back to it.
Monday, October 16, 2006
Moving
So...it could be said that I bore easily....and that I like to move.... but honestly it couldn't be further from the truth. It just appears that way.
1976 - Born in Penticton
1977 - move to Maple Ridge
1997 - move to Surrey (Jan - April)
1997 - move to Cloverdale (5 years)
2002(Sept) - move to Maple Ridge (in with the Rents to save for Europe)
2003(Sept) - move to Coquitlam (1 year in the Pink Palace)
2004(Sept) - move to Langley (2.5 months in lovely apartment)
2004(Nov) - move to Cloverdale
2005(June) - get my first place on my own in cloverdale!
2005(Sept) - moved back to Coquitlam where I've been for a year now
2006(Nov) - moving to Richmond!
Yes, it is well documented that I am in fact nuts.
Sad that most of that has all been in 4 years!
1976 - Born in Penticton
1977 - move to Maple Ridge
1997 - move to Surrey (Jan - April)
1997 - move to Cloverdale (5 years)
2002(Sept) - move to Maple Ridge (in with the Rents to save for Europe)
2003(Sept) - move to Coquitlam (1 year in the Pink Palace)
2004(Sept) - move to Langley (2.5 months in lovely apartment)
2004(Nov) - move to Cloverdale
2005(June) - get my first place on my own in cloverdale!
2005(Sept) - moved back to Coquitlam where I've been for a year now
2006(Nov) - moving to Richmond!
Yes, it is well documented that I am in fact nuts.
Sad that most of that has all been in 4 years!
Friday, October 06, 2006
Friday!
Yay! Been a super long week. At one point there I was doing 3 roles at work. Ugh. Everyone has been bitten by the bug going around - I feel lucky that I didn't get it as bad.
I didn't win the football pool either.... but it's probably for the best. The guy running it is a bit shady and obviously shouldn't be running it, so the fact that he won was for the best. Otherwise he would have had to find the money that I'm sure he spent. Nice.
I'm just happy it's friday. It's payday. It's a long weekend. And I'm getting a big turkey dinner for lunch at work today. Could life be any better?
I didn't win the football pool either.... but it's probably for the best. The guy running it is a bit shady and obviously shouldn't be running it, so the fact that he won was for the best. Otherwise he would have had to find the money that I'm sure he spent. Nice.
I'm just happy it's friday. It's payday. It's a long weekend. And I'm getting a big turkey dinner for lunch at work today. Could life be any better?
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Sick
Well I didn't really get to bed after my post on wednesday. I ended up going out for a little... um....fun. Yeah let's stick with that. Then proceeded to only get 4 hours sleep. Woke up feeling sicker than a dog complete with sore throat. I have my coworker (resident computer guy) who was sick all week but came in anyways, who had to fix my computer every damn day this week. My fault for not sanitizing after. But I went to work anyways as there was no way I couldn't. Even stayed for OT. Thank god friday was smoother and I got out on time.
Today I'm supposed to meet someone for coffee/drink but I really just want to stay on my couch. Heading over to a friends later on and we're going to watch football tomorrow! I'm excited. Which is weird cause I'm a baseball gal. But we're doing a pool at work and I've been leading for the last 3 weeks and we go 4 then start fresh again. I just need to get enough to keep my lead with tomorrow's games and I'll win $80. I could really use the money so I'm hoping!
Then it's back to work I go..... thank god everyone *should* be back on monday! Yay.
Today I'm supposed to meet someone for coffee/drink but I really just want to stay on my couch. Heading over to a friends later on and we're going to watch football tomorrow! I'm excited. Which is weird cause I'm a baseball gal. But we're doing a pool at work and I've been leading for the last 3 weeks and we go 4 then start fresh again. I just need to get enough to keep my lead with tomorrow's games and I'll win $80. I could really use the money so I'm hoping!
Then it's back to work I go..... thank god everyone *should* be back on monday! Yay.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Busy.
Wow. I haven't been this busy at work in ages. It's fun. Uh huh. Don't get me wrong - I love being busy. But this kind of busy is NUTS.
Did a bit of OT today.....the scary part? Tomorrow and friday are going to being even worse. Wasn't sure it was possible but I think it is.
I even cancelled a 'date' tonight. I'm just not one for planning much during the week - especially a week like this.
Gave my notice tonight.... sad but I need to move. My landlady is sad too but understands. But it may all be working out for the best. My new neighbor is having a lot of problems with his roof and doesn't want to leave but now he may just take my suite.
Now I'm just waiting for my laundry and then I'm totally heading to bed.
Did a bit of OT today.....the scary part? Tomorrow and friday are going to being even worse. Wasn't sure it was possible but I think it is.
I even cancelled a 'date' tonight. I'm just not one for planning much during the week - especially a week like this.
Gave my notice tonight.... sad but I need to move. My landlady is sad too but understands. But it may all be working out for the best. My new neighbor is having a lot of problems with his roof and doesn't want to leave but now he may just take my suite.
Now I'm just waiting for my laundry and then I'm totally heading to bed.
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Weekend never looked so good!
It's been a while since I've looked forward to a weekend this much. I had the most stressful and exhausting week at work complete with meetings, meetings, and more meetings. Ugh. Work is piled on that's for sure. But, I did score my very own parking spot! Yay. And all I had to do was ask.
Back on the dating scene it appears. Nobody really in particular yet but we'll see I guess. Really was hoping for 'something' with a certain someone but we're staying friends. And I think after some thought on it, I'm ok with it. Just not meant to be ya know?
Talking to a few new guys..... all seem nice - well maybe a couple weirdos but it appears you can't escape those.
And now I must get ready.... going out with friends and I have a feeling I'm going to be very intoxicated by the end of the night. Yay. Been far too long.
Back on the dating scene it appears. Nobody really in particular yet but we'll see I guess. Really was hoping for 'something' with a certain someone but we're staying friends. And I think after some thought on it, I'm ok with it. Just not meant to be ya know?
Talking to a few new guys..... all seem nice - well maybe a couple weirdos but it appears you can't escape those.
And now I must get ready.... going out with friends and I have a feeling I'm going to be very intoxicated by the end of the night. Yay. Been far too long.
Saturday, September 16, 2006
It never fails....
Why is that the guys that I want never feel that same? Or if they do, it's very fleeting?
And why is that the guys I have no feelings toward whatsoever are the ones that really want to pursue a relationship with me?
Hmpf.
Honestly, it's a bit tiring. But I feel good in the knowledge that if it was just about 'having a boyfriend' I would be with one of the latter and I'm still choosing to remain single. I think that says a lot. As much as I think I'm ready for 'something' and wanting for 'something', maybe I'm supposed to be taking care of everything else right now so that I'm really ready when 'something' comes.
Yeah. I like that theory. A lot.
Lately I've been feeling like I did in January...... like 'something' was about to happen. It did then so I'm hoping for a repeat but with a better outcome.
And why is that the guys I have no feelings toward whatsoever are the ones that really want to pursue a relationship with me?
Hmpf.
Honestly, it's a bit tiring. But I feel good in the knowledge that if it was just about 'having a boyfriend' I would be with one of the latter and I'm still choosing to remain single. I think that says a lot. As much as I think I'm ready for 'something' and wanting for 'something', maybe I'm supposed to be taking care of everything else right now so that I'm really ready when 'something' comes.
Yeah. I like that theory. A lot.
Lately I've been feeling like I did in January...... like 'something' was about to happen. It did then so I'm hoping for a repeat but with a better outcome.
Sunday, September 03, 2006
Content
So the past few months have been such a roller coaster of emotions that I'm happy to feel like the ride is coming to an end.
Between guys, financial worries and friend conflicts, it's all been very tiring.
I sense a fresh start on the near horizon and that makes me smile.
July wasn't very eventful until the end.... hit another Mariners game with S.... but that was about it. August was another story! The first week I housesat for a coworker, had a coworkers wedding on the 5th, company picnic on the 12th, a few days away at the cabin with S, baseball games with work, and a certain poker night with work people that I will never forget. Sigh. Pretty happy it's September actually :)
A couple things that are noteworthy:
My ex-husband adding me to his msn while he's traveling in Europe and being on this great level with him that we can be "friends" which I think is so healthy. We're not buddies or best friends by any means but I think it says a lot that after 10 years of knowing him we can talk to eachother and have a normal conversation with no bitterness. It's great.
Achieving a big step with cutie at work, however fleeting and over it is now, I will enjoy that moment for a long time.
Figuring out the first step in getting out of my financial worries with a pending move date of November 1st. Something I definately have to do.
Being absolutely and positively ready to move into the next chapter of my life, whatever that may hold. I say 'bring it'.
Between guys, financial worries and friend conflicts, it's all been very tiring.
I sense a fresh start on the near horizon and that makes me smile.
July wasn't very eventful until the end.... hit another Mariners game with S.... but that was about it. August was another story! The first week I housesat for a coworker, had a coworkers wedding on the 5th, company picnic on the 12th, a few days away at the cabin with S, baseball games with work, and a certain poker night with work people that I will never forget. Sigh. Pretty happy it's September actually :)
A couple things that are noteworthy:
My ex-husband adding me to his msn while he's traveling in Europe and being on this great level with him that we can be "friends" which I think is so healthy. We're not buddies or best friends by any means but I think it says a lot that after 10 years of knowing him we can talk to eachother and have a normal conversation with no bitterness. It's great.
Achieving a big step with cutie at work, however fleeting and over it is now, I will enjoy that moment for a long time.
Figuring out the first step in getting out of my financial worries with a pending move date of November 1st. Something I definately have to do.
Being absolutely and positively ready to move into the next chapter of my life, whatever that may hold. I say 'bring it'.
Saturday, September 02, 2006
Apologies....
...... not even sure if anybody still checks this but I am so sorry! Almost 2 months..... and not much to report.
I will come back later with an update.
I will come back later with an update.
Sunday, July 09, 2006
I love Sundays... ahhhhh
Well today has been one of those days.... a couple of long phone calls with friends.... lots of coffee..... and just plain relaxin! I'm just not feeling too motivated to do much of anything... feeling creative but haven't decided on what avenue to persue so I've been anything BUT creative.
What's new? Well had a really great night and talk with S the other day.... I think we've definately hit a good stride now and are in a good place. A really good "friendship" place. It's very nice actually.
Still crushing on cutie at work but have decided to just relax about it all.... I tend to over think things so for now I'll just drive him to work and get to know him.
I'm thinking of going on a very large and highly touted "successful" online site... just pondering the monday situation as it's a pay site and I'm poor. Yes, very very poor. I guess I should decide that one soon.....in the back of my mind I think it might be a good thing.
And that's about it for me..... finally trying to get more shifts at my part time job but they don't have much that isn't day hours during the week when I'm already at my full time job :( Oh well... hopefully something comes soon....
What's new? Well had a really great night and talk with S the other day.... I think we've definately hit a good stride now and are in a good place. A really good "friendship" place. It's very nice actually.
Still crushing on cutie at work but have decided to just relax about it all.... I tend to over think things so for now I'll just drive him to work and get to know him.
I'm thinking of going on a very large and highly touted "successful" online site... just pondering the monday situation as it's a pay site and I'm poor. Yes, very very poor. I guess I should decide that one soon.....in the back of my mind I think it might be a good thing.
And that's about it for me..... finally trying to get more shifts at my part time job but they don't have much that isn't day hours during the week when I'm already at my full time job :( Oh well... hopefully something comes soon....
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Slacker I am.....
Oops.. been a while. Haven't had much to post and well this thing is boring enough without having absolutely NOTHING to write about.
I've removed my profile from the 'online dating' world. It's been something I've been thinking about for a few months now and I guess I'd finally just had enough. I have no regrets and I met some great people, but the time has come to get something going IRL. I may end up back on there in the fall but for now I'm taking a break. Now that I've been ready for more than casual dating it doesn't seem that there are many guys out there looking for the same with me. Oh well. I know there's one out there for me somewhere..... now to find him! I'm looking forward to the journey.
I'm still driving my crush to work..... and I'm trying hard to NOT like him but I think I'm getting the opposite effect. So, it's time to piss or get off the pot already. I either have to get over my shyness and go for it or I have to get over him. I'm still not decided on the course of action I'm about to take. Yikes. Somedays I'm ready to just go for it but then I panic and that big fear of rejection comes into play again!
I don't get to go on my annual girls weekend next weekend either.... very very sad about this actually. But I've been so bad with money over the last year that I just can't justify it. I could borrow what I need but I honestly have no idea when I could pay that back. So I don't think I'd have too much fun. So instead I'm trying to fill up my weekend so I'm busy and not thinking about it. Friday night is good and now to just fill up Sat/Sun!
Today I have been cleaning and organizing my apartment. It appears that my little abode is benefiting from my boredom today! Speaking of which... I should get back to it.
Oh and Happy belated Canada Day!!!!!
I've removed my profile from the 'online dating' world. It's been something I've been thinking about for a few months now and I guess I'd finally just had enough. I have no regrets and I met some great people, but the time has come to get something going IRL. I may end up back on there in the fall but for now I'm taking a break. Now that I've been ready for more than casual dating it doesn't seem that there are many guys out there looking for the same with me. Oh well. I know there's one out there for me somewhere..... now to find him! I'm looking forward to the journey.
I'm still driving my crush to work..... and I'm trying hard to NOT like him but I think I'm getting the opposite effect. So, it's time to piss or get off the pot already. I either have to get over my shyness and go for it or I have to get over him. I'm still not decided on the course of action I'm about to take. Yikes. Somedays I'm ready to just go for it but then I panic and that big fear of rejection comes into play again!
I don't get to go on my annual girls weekend next weekend either.... very very sad about this actually. But I've been so bad with money over the last year that I just can't justify it. I could borrow what I need but I honestly have no idea when I could pay that back. So I don't think I'd have too much fun. So instead I'm trying to fill up my weekend so I'm busy and not thinking about it. Friday night is good and now to just fill up Sat/Sun!
Today I have been cleaning and organizing my apartment. It appears that my little abode is benefiting from my boredom today! Speaking of which... I should get back to it.
Oh and Happy belated Canada Day!!!!!
Sunday, June 18, 2006
From Jen:
I AM: Happy (and the best part is that I am for no particular reason!)
I WANT: to make more money
I HATE: other drivers because the majority are stupid!
I LOVE: my family & friends
I MISS: my grandparents
I FEAR: losing anyone I love
I HEAR: more than I’d like too
I WONDER: all the time
I REGRET: a lot but try not to regret much
I AM NOT: a married woman anymore – and damn happy with that
I DANCE: by myself
I AM NOT ALWAYS: quiet – I tend to talk a bit too much
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: anything and everything I can
I WRITE: to get it out
I CONFUSE:
I NEED: to move and get roommates to save money and try to get out of the hole!
I SHOULD: find a better paying job but for some reason I don’t
I START: lots but ….
I FINISH: ….don’t finish much
I WANT: to make more money
I HATE: other drivers because the majority are stupid!
I LOVE: my family & friends
I MISS: my grandparents
I FEAR: losing anyone I love
I HEAR: more than I’d like too
I WONDER: all the time
I REGRET: a lot but try not to regret much
I AM NOT: a married woman anymore – and damn happy with that
I DANCE: by myself
I AM NOT ALWAYS: quiet – I tend to talk a bit too much
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: anything and everything I can
I WRITE: to get it out
I CONFUSE:
I NEED: to move and get roommates to save money and try to get out of the hole!
I SHOULD: find a better paying job but for some reason I don’t
I START: lots but ….
I FINISH: ….don’t finish much
Home. At. Last.
As much as I love going away and getting out of town I was very happy to get home today. The drive sucked horribly as I was cramped up in the car and NOT comfortable in the least. So, I am very happy to be here.
Weekend was good. Lots of beer and food injested...... now I really have to go back to the gym tomorrow!
Seems I've missed a bit of action around here..... coworker/friend has broken her foot. And it appears I'll be picking her up tomorrow morning as well as cutie! I wasn't sure on him but he just called from work to see if I was. Of course I am ;)
Weekend was good. Lots of beer and food injested...... now I really have to go back to the gym tomorrow!
Seems I've missed a bit of action around here..... coworker/friend has broken her foot. And it appears I'll be picking her up tomorrow morning as well as cutie! I wasn't sure on him but he just called from work to see if I was. Of course I am ;)
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Just call me chauffeur....
Well this morning I started driving someone to and from work.
But not just anybody... the cutie I've been flirting with for months! Yes, I'm such a nice person I'm going out of my way to pick him up and then take him home after. Well I thought it was just to work but when he appeared in my office close to quitting time I think it was just assumed by both of us that I would be taking him home. What I'd really like to do is take him home with me! Ha ha! It really does suck that we work together as we get along very well and enjoy laughing with eachother a lot! The best part was showing up this morning and the coworker that's been pushing us together says 'did you two arrive together?' Classic.
But it's all very innocent.... unfortunately I don't see anything happening with him. And that is really really unfortunate as I think we could have made an interesting item. We definately would have had fun trying!
Sigh.
2 more days until my girls weekend away and I cannot wait. My boss asked me to work a later shift on thursday because of two meetings I have to attend but I had such a roller coaster ride getting the day off that I'm tired of bending over backwards for them. He did mention that I'd have to really manage my time well - um yeah really now? He's so clueless as to what I really do around there it's laughable. And honestly, he should talk about multitasking. Har.
Back to my couch I go....
But not just anybody... the cutie I've been flirting with for months! Yes, I'm such a nice person I'm going out of my way to pick him up and then take him home after. Well I thought it was just to work but when he appeared in my office close to quitting time I think it was just assumed by both of us that I would be taking him home. What I'd really like to do is take him home with me! Ha ha! It really does suck that we work together as we get along very well and enjoy laughing with eachother a lot! The best part was showing up this morning and the coworker that's been pushing us together says 'did you two arrive together?' Classic.
But it's all very innocent.... unfortunately I don't see anything happening with him. And that is really really unfortunate as I think we could have made an interesting item. We definately would have had fun trying!
Sigh.
2 more days until my girls weekend away and I cannot wait. My boss asked me to work a later shift on thursday because of two meetings I have to attend but I had such a roller coaster ride getting the day off that I'm tired of bending over backwards for them. He did mention that I'd have to really manage my time well - um yeah really now? He's so clueless as to what I really do around there it's laughable. And honestly, he should talk about multitasking. Har.
Back to my couch I go....
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Oops!
Oops.... I left here on such a sad note.... and I was better about an hour later!
I may get down once in a while but I sure don't stay there long!
Off to get my day started finally.....
I may get down once in a while but I sure don't stay there long!
Off to get my day started finally.....
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
:(
Well tonight I had a bit of a sad bout. I hate them as I'm usually a pretty happy person. It's sickening actually. But I guess it will happen but when it's out of the blue I hate it more.
I just can't seem to win lately. It just figures that by the time I'm finally ready for a relationship I have nothing of the sort even remotely happening. A year ago at this time I could have had the greatest guy with everything I wanted. But... I was not ready in the least. I still think of him and maybe a different time or place and it would have worked but I digress....
Up until S, I really didn't know how ready I was for something. And it was almost more so apparent *after* that ended. Why is that?
And then I think something is happening with another guy that I've been taking a liking to as of late... but nope. It doesn't appear to be mutual. Well there were signs that it was but it's really not looking that way as of late....
So... here I sit.... sad that now that I'm ready and waiting I got nothin'!
I'm really not interested in going back to dating different guys again like I was doing last year.... but I don't want to be actively looking either for something. KWIM?
I have the song 'too many fish in the sea' going through my head so I know I'll be ok but it feels good to get this out of my system..... I think I'm going to *stop* looking and just relax about it all for the time being. Can't force things that aren't there can ya?
I just can't seem to win lately. It just figures that by the time I'm finally ready for a relationship I have nothing of the sort even remotely happening. A year ago at this time I could have had the greatest guy with everything I wanted. But... I was not ready in the least. I still think of him and maybe a different time or place and it would have worked but I digress....
Up until S, I really didn't know how ready I was for something. And it was almost more so apparent *after* that ended. Why is that?
And then I think something is happening with another guy that I've been taking a liking to as of late... but nope. It doesn't appear to be mutual. Well there were signs that it was but it's really not looking that way as of late....
So... here I sit.... sad that now that I'm ready and waiting I got nothin'!
I'm really not interested in going back to dating different guys again like I was doing last year.... but I don't want to be actively looking either for something. KWIM?
I have the song 'too many fish in the sea' going through my head so I know I'll be ok but it feels good to get this out of my system..... I think I'm going to *stop* looking and just relax about it all for the time being. Can't force things that aren't there can ya?
Monday, June 05, 2006
Dum de dum....
I got nothing. Absolutely freakin nothing.
Well maybe something.
Met a new *boy* on friday. Nice and attractive but can you say 'hung up on your ex' much? I honestly want to know how I always seem to attract these guys? Do I have a big sign on me that I am unaware of?
*If you're hung up on your ex - pick me! Pick me! I'm a glutton for punishment.*
I'm not terribly upset about T from friday as there wasn't any sort of connection but it still sucks. Murphy is quickly moving into the *best friend* slot. Gosh, what did I ever do to deserve him?
Then there is another issue... my dearest friend in the world and I have seemed to come off kilter a bit the last few months and I'm not sure how to get back to what we had. I'm trying to figure out if maybe we're just destined to be friends only and not great friends. But we're "lif-ers" or that is how we have both felt for the last 23 years. I love her to death but I honestly do not feel that I'm getting what I need nor do I feel I'm giving her what she needs. I think I've had a wall up with her since before I met S and when he hurt me, her lack of compassion really hit hard. A lot has been going on with us and an email today from her regarding our tentative trip north for a girls weekend was absolutely rude. I was asked by our president if I could change my plans as we are having a very big meeting that day with my client and all of their suppliers. I can't really afford to go anyways as a lot of things have popped up lately, but that's beside the point. She replied with "we'll make other plans then.... thanks anyways"....
And there has also been some new happenings with cutie at work... but it would only embarass me so we're not going there.
I guess I ended up having a bit afterall.... such an exciting life I lead.
Well maybe something.
Met a new *boy* on friday. Nice and attractive but can you say 'hung up on your ex' much? I honestly want to know how I always seem to attract these guys? Do I have a big sign on me that I am unaware of?
*If you're hung up on your ex - pick me! Pick me! I'm a glutton for punishment.*
I'm not terribly upset about T from friday as there wasn't any sort of connection but it still sucks. Murphy is quickly moving into the *best friend* slot. Gosh, what did I ever do to deserve him?
Then there is another issue... my dearest friend in the world and I have seemed to come off kilter a bit the last few months and I'm not sure how to get back to what we had. I'm trying to figure out if maybe we're just destined to be friends only and not great friends. But we're "lif-ers" or that is how we have both felt for the last 23 years. I love her to death but I honestly do not feel that I'm getting what I need nor do I feel I'm giving her what she needs. I think I've had a wall up with her since before I met S and when he hurt me, her lack of compassion really hit hard. A lot has been going on with us and an email today from her regarding our tentative trip north for a girls weekend was absolutely rude. I was asked by our president if I could change my plans as we are having a very big meeting that day with my client and all of their suppliers. I can't really afford to go anyways as a lot of things have popped up lately, but that's beside the point. She replied with "we'll make other plans then.... thanks anyways"....
And there has also been some new happenings with cutie at work... but it would only embarass me so we're not going there.
I guess I ended up having a bit afterall.... such an exciting life I lead.
Monday, May 29, 2006
Stolen from Jen... who stole it from Silly
Name 5 things in your refrigerator
1. milk
2. eggs
3. insulin
4. diet pepsi
5. lettuce gone bad (oh wait I think I finally threw it away)
Name 5 things in your closet
1. ikea bag full of purses I don't use but can't part with
2. frames I have yet to put pictures in
3. christmas decorations (all 5 boxes!)
4. vacuum
5. and of course clothes:)
Name 5 things in your purse
1. wallet
2. gum
3. lipgloss
4. insulin
5. garage clicker for apartment
1. milk
2. eggs
3. insulin
4. diet pepsi
5. lettuce gone bad (oh wait I think I finally threw it away)
Name 5 things in your closet
1. ikea bag full of purses I don't use but can't part with
2. frames I have yet to put pictures in
3. christmas decorations (all 5 boxes!)
4. vacuum
5. and of course clothes:)
Name 5 things in your purse
1. wallet
2. gum
3. lipgloss
4. insulin
5. garage clicker for apartment
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Another weekend gone....
Well another weekend has come and gone. It's funny that when I am entering into a weekend and have no plans but wish I did - the weekend usually ends up being a dud. But when I am heading into a weekend with no plans and loving it - it usually ends up pretty good.
This past weekend was the latter. Last week was busy but not.... things like the gym.. coffee with friends... and a trip to Ikea. Friday night I ended up hanging out with a friend and catching up on my sleep from the measely 3 hours I got on thursday night! Saturday day was relaxing...well after I got up anyways. Trip to Lisa's..... trip to Chapters.... vegging and reading that night. It was wonderful. Then today I went for breakfast with a friend... then spent the day veggin on his couch reading and napping. It was a perfect sunday.... my favorite kind. Yes I could have done the same thing at home alone but it honestly wouldn't have been the same. It's nice to have company once in a while.... talking to my fish is only as exciting as it sounds.
Tomorrow I have a pretty busy day at work.... finally getting my review ... social committee meeting at 11am.... and then my usual crazy madness I call my job.
Night all!
This past weekend was the latter. Last week was busy but not.... things like the gym.. coffee with friends... and a trip to Ikea. Friday night I ended up hanging out with a friend and catching up on my sleep from the measely 3 hours I got on thursday night! Saturday day was relaxing...well after I got up anyways. Trip to Lisa's..... trip to Chapters.... vegging and reading that night. It was wonderful. Then today I went for breakfast with a friend... then spent the day veggin on his couch reading and napping. It was a perfect sunday.... my favorite kind. Yes I could have done the same thing at home alone but it honestly wouldn't have been the same. It's nice to have company once in a while.... talking to my fish is only as exciting as it sounds.
Tomorrow I have a pretty busy day at work.... finally getting my review ... social committee meeting at 11am.... and then my usual crazy madness I call my job.
Night all!
Monday, May 22, 2006
Ahhh... long weekends....
Well it's been a nice weekend.
Friday I hung out with a friend.....very relaxing and good company.
Saturday I went to an old coworkers wedding with a coworker.... we introduced 2 women (also coworkers) to their first pub and had a blast! I don't think I'll ever look at tequila without thinking of them! After that I was supposed to meet up with friends for my dear Lisa's birthday but it didn't work out and I missed it :(
Sunday I spent most of the day shopping for her present..... just couldn't decide on anything but finally ended up with some nice things.... and this morning I went over there and finally got to see her and she liked everything. Yay! Last night I was a complete vegetable.....
And today, as mentioned I was at L's this morning... spent most of the day there and then came home. Then realized I needed a few things so I headed out to the grocery store.
And now, here I sit..... I'm restless but I think I'll just be hanging around here all night being a lazy bum! Looking forward to getting back to work tomorrow.....
Wow... I have such an exciting life don't I?
Friday I hung out with a friend.....very relaxing and good company.
Saturday I went to an old coworkers wedding with a coworker.... we introduced 2 women (also coworkers) to their first pub and had a blast! I don't think I'll ever look at tequila without thinking of them! After that I was supposed to meet up with friends for my dear Lisa's birthday but it didn't work out and I missed it :(
Sunday I spent most of the day shopping for her present..... just couldn't decide on anything but finally ended up with some nice things.... and this morning I went over there and finally got to see her and she liked everything. Yay! Last night I was a complete vegetable.....
And today, as mentioned I was at L's this morning... spent most of the day there and then came home. Then realized I needed a few things so I headed out to the grocery store.
And now, here I sit..... I'm restless but I think I'll just be hanging around here all night being a lazy bum! Looking forward to getting back to work tomorrow.....
Wow... I have such an exciting life don't I?
Friday, May 19, 2006
Happy Friday!!!
It's friday it's friday! And it's payday AND a long weekend, could life get any better than that??
Yesterday they said on the radio that May 18th is the happiest day of the year! I think it was a pretty ok day but I'm entirely sure the 'happiest'! :)
Anyways..... life is good.... nothing exciting or new to report but still good :)
Yesterday they said on the radio that May 18th is the happiest day of the year! I think it was a pretty ok day but I'm entirely sure the 'happiest'! :)
Anyways..... life is good.... nothing exciting or new to report but still good :)
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Well that definately took long enough....
I know I've said this before, numerous times if I recall, but I am FINALLY there. Yup. I don't even know how to explain it but I'm there. I've probably lost you all (I'm talking like there are actually people reading this damn thing) but I have NO idea if I can explain it.
This whole thing with S has been a very big roller coaster as you all know. I've been getting close but taking so many steps back that I hadn't reached the end result and was having problems getting there. But as of last night, and today, I am. I'm done being 'crazy' and getting all sad. I think you could call it an epiphany of sorts. I had to get him to spell it out and I had to realize how I've been acting to really get 'it' but I do. I could NOT be happier. I can't even pinpoint it to exactly what he said but I finally got it. Yay! I have honestly, truly gotten there.
So........ I am ready for what comes my way but I think I'm going to take a break from the whole 'online' thing as lately it's just been one jackass after another. And I'm a good person and I want to be with a good person :) I deserve it!
Oh and on a side note.... Shadd is gone gone gone! He said something that I just could NOT get out of my head that completely turned me off. And I'm not a prude but I have never been talked to like that. Blech. At least he went away quietly....
So onto more adventures.... my coworker is still trying to set me up with her friend and I'm seriously contemplating it as I could really use a good, normal nice guy right now :)
This whole thing with S has been a very big roller coaster as you all know. I've been getting close but taking so many steps back that I hadn't reached the end result and was having problems getting there. But as of last night, and today, I am. I'm done being 'crazy' and getting all sad. I think you could call it an epiphany of sorts. I had to get him to spell it out and I had to realize how I've been acting to really get 'it' but I do. I could NOT be happier. I can't even pinpoint it to exactly what he said but I finally got it. Yay! I have honestly, truly gotten there.
So........ I am ready for what comes my way but I think I'm going to take a break from the whole 'online' thing as lately it's just been one jackass after another. And I'm a good person and I want to be with a good person :) I deserve it!
Oh and on a side note.... Shadd is gone gone gone! He said something that I just could NOT get out of my head that completely turned me off. And I'm not a prude but I have never been talked to like that. Blech. At least he went away quietly....
So onto more adventures.... my coworker is still trying to set me up with her friend and I'm seriously contemplating it as I could really use a good, normal nice guy right now :)
Sunday, May 14, 2006
Crunch TIme
Well I have decided (literally 5 mins ago while I lay in bed not being able to sleep and thinking FAR too much) that I need to liven up this blog. It's so. damn. boring. Snooz-er-if-ic I'd say! I think one route I may try is my dating adventures. Or shall we say the Tales of Andi's Harem......
I think this week I will go back and recount all of them.... yup... right down to the nitty gritty. But only the ones I've actually met... well maybe a couple that didn't make it that far too for good measure. It really has been an interesting and bumpy road. And lately, well, a bit of a letdown.
Now let's start by saying that Murphy, as in Murphy's Law, is my bestest friend in the whole world. Yup. We are very tight. He has stuck by my side now for so long I honestly do not know what I would do without him. And yes, he's definately a 'him' as only a male could do the job.
Ok.... so let's go back to the start.....
1) Lee: nice guy but a funny little brit; we had fun and he was a very nice start for me into the dating scene even though we didn't really date
2) Chad: super nice guy; exactly the type of guy I've *thought* I've always wanted; steady job, wanted kids, adored me, but it was just too soon and I was very much NOT ready for what he wanted
3) Peter: artsy fartsy, cutie, but sooooo NOT my type; we still chat and are trying to get together for drinks soon
4) Jason: ahhh Jason, wow did I lust after this one; thought he was way out of my league; we had a nice little run for a while there around christmas but it soon fizzled out by early January; we still chat once in a while but I haven't seen him in person since January.
5) Mike: stable Mike with the good job, owns his own townhouse, but he's a cat person; never really thought of him in the 'dating' sense as I just didn't feel much of a connection with him; still talk once in a while
6) Kevin: by far the BEST kisser I have met yet; wow is all I gotta say about this one; and after much persuing on his part I really liked him only to have it end abruptly because of an ex; *sigh*
7) Pete: high strung and out there Pete; this one was weird because at one point 10 or 11 years ago this guy was my ex-husband's boss; yup, i live in a very small world
8) Justin: I can sum up Justin pretty quick - boring! He has got to be the most frustrating person ever and the most unimaginative also; we talked for a loooonnnng time before actually meeting and I did like him at first but I got so sick of hearing the same things and being the only talker that I ended that one pretty damn quick; we still chat once in a while and he's still as frustrating as ever!
9) Tom: spent one sunday afternoon with this guy and then he wouldn't leave me alone; I even had the pleasure of receiving a couple picture texts from him and they weren't head shots if you know what I'm saying! Yeah - finally had to block him.
10) Rob: Never have I been so damn nervous to meet someone in person; we really hit it off on the phone and online that I was a nervous nelly going to meet him; he was pretty hung up on his ex and I didn't think he was that interested in me and then I
met S a couple weeks later and that was that.
11) Shane: well we all know about Shane; so much to say but yet I've already said so much; the sad part is he could still have me at any moment and I absolutely hate that; I'm working on it but it's taking a bit longer than I expected; I tell ya - those god damn ex's are going to be the death of me
12) Shadd: yes, his name is Shadd; this is the most recent one that I've talked to for all of 5 days and I'm already 'hon, sweetie, blah blah blah'; he won't leave me alone and I'm growing sick of that very quickly; just a bit too eager for my liking
There's also been alot in between there.... Andrew, Rene(who I celebrated my divorce with), Brad, another couple of Jason's, Craig, Timothy, etc... wow I've sure met a lot. You'd think I would have hit it off with one of them by now!
So.... I have to say that I'm definately at a crossroads with this whole 'online' thing. Lately, it's all just been one bad one after another. I wish I had friends that would just set me up with someone they thought I would be great for and vice versa but I guess there's nobody out there like that. At least then I would know that the person comes with some sort of history and I wouldn't have to worry so much about him being a decent person.
I think this week I will go back and recount all of them.... yup... right down to the nitty gritty. But only the ones I've actually met... well maybe a couple that didn't make it that far too for good measure. It really has been an interesting and bumpy road. And lately, well, a bit of a letdown.
Now let's start by saying that Murphy, as in Murphy's Law, is my bestest friend in the whole world. Yup. We are very tight. He has stuck by my side now for so long I honestly do not know what I would do without him. And yes, he's definately a 'him' as only a male could do the job.
Ok.... so let's go back to the start.....
1) Lee: nice guy but a funny little brit; we had fun and he was a very nice start for me into the dating scene even though we didn't really date
2) Chad: super nice guy; exactly the type of guy I've *thought* I've always wanted; steady job, wanted kids, adored me, but it was just too soon and I was very much NOT ready for what he wanted
3) Peter: artsy fartsy, cutie, but sooooo NOT my type; we still chat and are trying to get together for drinks soon
4) Jason: ahhh Jason, wow did I lust after this one; thought he was way out of my league; we had a nice little run for a while there around christmas but it soon fizzled out by early January; we still chat once in a while but I haven't seen him in person since January.
5) Mike: stable Mike with the good job, owns his own townhouse, but he's a cat person; never really thought of him in the 'dating' sense as I just didn't feel much of a connection with him; still talk once in a while
6) Kevin: by far the BEST kisser I have met yet; wow is all I gotta say about this one; and after much persuing on his part I really liked him only to have it end abruptly because of an ex; *sigh*
7) Pete: high strung and out there Pete; this one was weird because at one point 10 or 11 years ago this guy was my ex-husband's boss; yup, i live in a very small world
8) Justin: I can sum up Justin pretty quick - boring! He has got to be the most frustrating person ever and the most unimaginative also; we talked for a loooonnnng time before actually meeting and I did like him at first but I got so sick of hearing the same things and being the only talker that I ended that one pretty damn quick; we still chat once in a while and he's still as frustrating as ever!
9) Tom: spent one sunday afternoon with this guy and then he wouldn't leave me alone; I even had the pleasure of receiving a couple picture texts from him and they weren't head shots if you know what I'm saying! Yeah - finally had to block him.
10) Rob: Never have I been so damn nervous to meet someone in person; we really hit it off on the phone and online that I was a nervous nelly going to meet him; he was pretty hung up on his ex and I didn't think he was that interested in me and then I
met S a couple weeks later and that was that.
11) Shane: well we all know about Shane; so much to say but yet I've already said so much; the sad part is he could still have me at any moment and I absolutely hate that; I'm working on it but it's taking a bit longer than I expected; I tell ya - those god damn ex's are going to be the death of me
12) Shadd: yes, his name is Shadd; this is the most recent one that I've talked to for all of 5 days and I'm already 'hon, sweetie, blah blah blah'; he won't leave me alone and I'm growing sick of that very quickly; just a bit too eager for my liking
There's also been alot in between there.... Andrew, Rene(who I celebrated my divorce with), Brad, another couple of Jason's, Craig, Timothy, etc... wow I've sure met a lot. You'd think I would have hit it off with one of them by now!
So.... I have to say that I'm definately at a crossroads with this whole 'online' thing. Lately, it's all just been one bad one after another. I wish I had friends that would just set me up with someone they thought I would be great for and vice versa but I guess there's nobody out there like that. At least then I would know that the person comes with some sort of history and I wouldn't have to worry so much about him being a decent person.
Friday, May 12, 2006
I got nothin......
Yeah... I live such an exciting life. Suuuuuurrrrrreeee!
Ok the most interesting thing I have is that I'm talking to a new guy. Not too sure about how interested I am but I really need to move on. I am still really interested in the guy at work but it appears that we're just going to continue to flirt and that might be it :( Oh well..... not meant to be I suppose. As for S, well he's so damn hot and cold that it drives me crazy. Thank god I have come to expect it so I'm not getting hurt by it anymore. But I am realizing more and more that I really need to take a break from him I think. But that changes daily so who knows!
It's friday, the sun is shining, and my sis and her boys are coming down for the weekend so I'm pretty excited! I need a fix for my favorite little men as I haven't seen them since January!
Happy Weekend all!
Ok the most interesting thing I have is that I'm talking to a new guy. Not too sure about how interested I am but I really need to move on. I am still really interested in the guy at work but it appears that we're just going to continue to flirt and that might be it :( Oh well..... not meant to be I suppose. As for S, well he's so damn hot and cold that it drives me crazy. Thank god I have come to expect it so I'm not getting hurt by it anymore. But I am realizing more and more that I really need to take a break from him I think. But that changes daily so who knows!
It's friday, the sun is shining, and my sis and her boys are coming down for the weekend so I'm pretty excited! I need a fix for my favorite little men as I haven't seen them since January!
Happy Weekend all!
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Not so angry....
Yeah.... well what can I say? We had a really good talk last night.... longest ever I think. It was good and I got a lot off of my chest. He sort of has a tendency of becoming a recluse and I'm still adjusting to that. Apparently I wasn't the only one wondering and worrying about him.
Gave cutie a ride home again....*sigh*. Don't think he's interested though - or if he is not enough. OH well.....
Going to meet a coworkers group of friends tonight and she's trying to fix me up. Oy vay! Should be interesting...... I wish she hadn't told me though as it's really making me NOT want to go.
Anyways I'm super late..... ciao!
Gave cutie a ride home again....*sigh*. Don't think he's interested though - or if he is not enough. OH well.....
Going to meet a coworkers group of friends tonight and she's trying to fix me up. Oy vay! Should be interesting...... I wish she hadn't told me though as it's really making me NOT want to go.
Anyways I'm super late..... ciao!
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Angry.... hmpf.
Angry at S but not getting into it. He's a dumbass who can't handle "us" as friends. *sigh* What can you do?
On a MUCH happier note, I drove cutie home from work yesterday. It was nice and we talked about a lot of different things (first time we've ever been alone) and now I think I like him even more. I'm such a dork.
Oh and.... I won the lotto! I'd love to say that I won *big* but I'm not shaking a stick at $103!!! Sad that that's all I get for 5 out of 7 numbers but whatever.
Happy tuesday all!
On a MUCH happier note, I drove cutie home from work yesterday. It was nice and we talked about a lot of different things (first time we've ever been alone) and now I think I like him even more. I'm such a dork.
Oh and.... I won the lotto! I'd love to say that I won *big* but I'm not shaking a stick at $103!!! Sad that that's all I get for 5 out of 7 numbers but whatever.
Happy tuesday all!
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Stolen from Jill.....
Definately NOT spoiled....
Do you have:
(1) your own cell phone
( ) a television in your bedroom
( )an MP3 player
( ) a photo printer
(2) your own phone line
( ) TiVo or a generic digital video recorder
(3) high-speed internet access (i.e., not dialup)
( ) a surround sound system in bedroom
( ) DVD player in bedroom
(4) at least a hundred DVDs
(5) a childfree bathroom
( ) your own in-house office
() a pool
( )a guest house
( )a game room
( ) a queen-size bed or larger
( ) a stocked bar
( ) a working dishwasher
( ) an icemaker
( ) a working washer and dryer
( ) more than 20 pairs of shoes
( ) at least ten things from a designer store
( ) expensive sunglasses
( ) framed original art (not lithographs or prints)
( ) Egyptian cotton sheets or towels.
( ) a multi-speed bike
(6) a gym membership
( ) large exercise equipment at home
( ) your own set of golf clubs hand-me-downs
( ) a pool table
( ) a tennis court
(7) local access to a lake, large pond, or the sea
( ) your own pair of skis (I consider my snowboard)
( ) enough camping gear for a weekend trip in an isolated area
( ) a boat
( ) a jet ski
( ) a neighborhood committee membership
(8) a beach house or a vacation house/cabin (well access to one anyways)
( ) wealthy family members
( ) two or more family cars
( ) a walk-in closet or pantry
( ) a yard
( ) a hammock
( ) a personal trainer
(9) good credit
( ) expensive jewelry
( ) a designer bag that required being on a waiting list to get
( ) at least $100 cash in your possession right now
(10) more than two credit cards bearing your name (not counting gas cards or debit cards)
( ) a stock portfolio
(11) a passport
( ) a horse
( ) a trust fund (either for you or created by you)
( ) private medical insurance
Do you:
( ) shop for non-needed items for yourself (like clothes, jewelry, electronics) at least once a week
() do your regular grocery shopping at high-end or specialty stores
() pay someone else to clean your house, do dishes, or launder your clothes (not counting dry-cleaning)
() go on weekend mini-vacations
() send dinners back with every flaw
(12) wear perfume or cologne (not body spray)
( ) regularly get your hair styled or nails done in a salon
() have a job but don't need the money OR
() stay at home with little financial sacrifice
() pay someone else to cook your meals
() pay someone else to watch your children or walk your dogs
() regularly pay someone else to drive your taxis
() expect a gift after you fight with your partner
Are you:
() an only child
() married/partnered to a wealthy person
() baffled/surprised when you don't get your way
Have you:
( ) been on a cruise
(13) traveled out of the country
( ) met a celebrity
(14) been to the Caribbean
(15) been to Europe
( ) been to Hawaii
( ) been to New York
() eaten at the space needle in Seattle
() been to the Mall of America
(16) been on the Eiffel tower in Paris (been to it)
() been on the Statue of Liberty in New York
(17) moved more than three times because you wanted to
( ) dined with local political figures
( ) been to both the Atlantic coast and the Pacific coast
Did you:
(18) go to another country for your honeymoon
( ) hire a professional photographer for your wedding or party
(19) take riding or swimming lessons as a child
( ) attend private school
( ) have a Sweet 16 birthday party thrown for you
Do you have:
(1) your own cell phone
( ) a television in your bedroom
( )an MP3 player
( ) a photo printer
(2) your own phone line
( ) TiVo or a generic digital video recorder
(3) high-speed internet access (i.e., not dialup)
( ) a surround sound system in bedroom
( ) DVD player in bedroom
(4) at least a hundred DVDs
(5) a childfree bathroom
( ) your own in-house office
() a pool
( )a guest house
( )a game room
( ) a queen-size bed or larger
( ) a stocked bar
( ) a working dishwasher
( ) an icemaker
( ) a working washer and dryer
( ) more than 20 pairs of shoes
( ) at least ten things from a designer store
( ) expensive sunglasses
( ) framed original art (not lithographs or prints)
( ) Egyptian cotton sheets or towels.
( ) a multi-speed bike
(6) a gym membership
( ) large exercise equipment at home
( ) your own set of golf clubs hand-me-downs
( ) a pool table
( ) a tennis court
(7) local access to a lake, large pond, or the sea
( ) your own pair of skis (I consider my snowboard)
( ) enough camping gear for a weekend trip in an isolated area
( ) a boat
( ) a jet ski
( ) a neighborhood committee membership
(8) a beach house or a vacation house/cabin (well access to one anyways)
( ) wealthy family members
( ) two or more family cars
( ) a walk-in closet or pantry
( ) a yard
( ) a hammock
( ) a personal trainer
(9) good credit
( ) expensive jewelry
( ) a designer bag that required being on a waiting list to get
( ) at least $100 cash in your possession right now
(10) more than two credit cards bearing your name (not counting gas cards or debit cards)
( ) a stock portfolio
(11) a passport
( ) a horse
( ) a trust fund (either for you or created by you)
( ) private medical insurance
Do you:
( ) shop for non-needed items for yourself (like clothes, jewelry, electronics) at least once a week
() do your regular grocery shopping at high-end or specialty stores
() pay someone else to clean your house, do dishes, or launder your clothes (not counting dry-cleaning)
() go on weekend mini-vacations
() send dinners back with every flaw
(12) wear perfume or cologne (not body spray)
( ) regularly get your hair styled or nails done in a salon
() have a job but don't need the money OR
() stay at home with little financial sacrifice
() pay someone else to cook your meals
() pay someone else to watch your children or walk your dogs
() regularly pay someone else to drive your taxis
() expect a gift after you fight with your partner
Are you:
() an only child
() married/partnered to a wealthy person
() baffled/surprised when you don't get your way
Have you:
( ) been on a cruise
(13) traveled out of the country
( ) met a celebrity
(14) been to the Caribbean
(15) been to Europe
( ) been to Hawaii
( ) been to New York
() eaten at the space needle in Seattle
() been to the Mall of America
(16) been on the Eiffel tower in Paris (been to it)
() been on the Statue of Liberty in New York
(17) moved more than three times because you wanted to
( ) dined with local political figures
( ) been to both the Atlantic coast and the Pacific coast
Did you:
(18) go to another country for your honeymoon
( ) hire a professional photographer for your wedding or party
(19) take riding or swimming lessons as a child
( ) attend private school
( ) have a Sweet 16 birthday party thrown for you
Saturday, April 29, 2006
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006
La la la
I have been saying that a LOT lately..... I'm not even sure what I mean by it when I do it but usually that I'm contently just humming along "la la la".
Had a weird and confusing weekend with S. But I'm not letting it affect me or my positive attitude or make me all crazy like usual. Crazy woman is gone gone gone!
And unfortunately, my eye candy has been missing at work all week :( It seems he is sick and therefore hasn't been in. Doesn't he know I need my daily dose of his cute little face? Doesn't he know that he helps get me through the daily crud at work? Hmpf *Crossing* all crossables that he's back tomorrow :) but will definately live if he isn't!
OH and I came across a very funny blog about a single woman's dating experience.... she started it last summer and so far I've read 2 months and I just hit september and have a LONG way to go........ it's a great read but I do wish I could take it to bed with me. Hmmmm... more reasons for a laptop next time.
Until next time.....
Had a weird and confusing weekend with S. But I'm not letting it affect me or my positive attitude or make me all crazy like usual. Crazy woman is gone gone gone!
And unfortunately, my eye candy has been missing at work all week :( It seems he is sick and therefore hasn't been in. Doesn't he know I need my daily dose of his cute little face? Doesn't he know that he helps get me through the daily crud at work? Hmpf *Crossing* all crossables that he's back tomorrow :) but will definately live if he isn't!
OH and I came across a very funny blog about a single woman's dating experience.... she started it last summer and so far I've read 2 months and I just hit september and have a LONG way to go........ it's a great read but I do wish I could take it to bed with me. Hmmmm... more reasons for a laptop next time.
Until next time.....
Friday, April 21, 2006
Gotta love fridays.....
Well I've been fighting a cold all week. Sore throat and dry cough :( But considering I haven't really been sick since Europe and that was 3 years ago, I don't think I can really complain. But this morning I woke up and wasn't in pain so I'm taking that as a good sign.
Things are still good on the S front.... thinking of him less and less.... which ROCKS! We're hanging out tonight but I think this might be it for a while.... still up in the air about it so maybe ask me tomorrow!
My little crush at work isn't there today so it's going to be pretty boring but I'm already looking forward to monday :) Yes, I'm silly. But he's fun and makes me laugh and makes work somewhere that I love to go.
Other than that.... nothing new or exciting. Wow.... aren't I exciting?
Things are still good on the S front.... thinking of him less and less.... which ROCKS! We're hanging out tonight but I think this might be it for a while.... still up in the air about it so maybe ask me tomorrow!
My little crush at work isn't there today so it's going to be pretty boring but I'm already looking forward to monday :) Yes, I'm silly. But he's fun and makes me laugh and makes work somewhere that I love to go.
Other than that.... nothing new or exciting. Wow.... aren't I exciting?
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
Well then.....
I had an amazingly boring and uneventful weekend. Well not entirely as I did celebrate my divorce on friday, went to a baby shower on saturday, and had a nice turkey dinner on sunday, but other than that I did nothing. And while I thought that's what I wanted..... I couldn't wait to get back to work yesterday. Yes, I am crazy. But I digress.....
I ended up with a lot of time on my hands to think about life and such. After having yet another crazy episode on friday regarding S, I have come to the conclusion that I need to become less available to him. (thanks again Sis) And I may just be smart to take a little break. It's not that I get messed up when I see him but more that when I don't talk to him for a day or two I get all crazy. I like to know my plans so when he says let's do something on such and such a day, I plan around that. But, the last couple times he has jammed and that's when I get hurt. I miss being a priority.
So yesterday when we had tentative plans when he came back from Victoria and he was supposed to let me know at some point what was going on and he didn't, I went ahead and made plans without him. And it felt great. A little part of me wishes he had called at some point and I could have told him "too bad - got plans", but he didn't. Of course. I still haven't heard from him actually - maybe my crazy episode on friday finally did it? I guess we'll see.
On another note... I cannot believe that a month later my posts are still focused on S. That's it.... done done done. I solemnly vow that there will not be another. Well I sure hope it's uneventful enough that I can make that reality.
I ended up with a lot of time on my hands to think about life and such. After having yet another crazy episode on friday regarding S, I have come to the conclusion that I need to become less available to him. (thanks again Sis) And I may just be smart to take a little break. It's not that I get messed up when I see him but more that when I don't talk to him for a day or two I get all crazy. I like to know my plans so when he says let's do something on such and such a day, I plan around that. But, the last couple times he has jammed and that's when I get hurt. I miss being a priority.
So yesterday when we had tentative plans when he came back from Victoria and he was supposed to let me know at some point what was going on and he didn't, I went ahead and made plans without him. And it felt great. A little part of me wishes he had called at some point and I could have told him "too bad - got plans", but he didn't. Of course. I still haven't heard from him actually - maybe my crazy episode on friday finally did it? I guess we'll see.
On another note... I cannot believe that a month later my posts are still focused on S. That's it.... done done done. I solemnly vow that there will not be another. Well I sure hope it's uneventful enough that I can make that reality.
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Ahhhhh
Well the game was awesome! Safeco field is a very fan friendly stadium and we had amazing seats! Very much worth the money! I will post some pics when I get them from S. He got some great shots.
It was a lovely weekend..... friday I went for drinks with a few people from work (including the cutie!) and we had a blast! He now knows that I am attracted to him and apparently he likes me but has done the whole "work relationship" before where it didn't go very well so he'd never do it again. Figures! Oh well.....
What else? Hmmmmmm.... oh I have a strange one. The more time I spend with S, the more it's helping me get over him. Weird or what? Can't explain it really but I'm not complaining. I don't want to be with him if he doesn't want to be with me. Finally.
It was a lovely weekend..... friday I went for drinks with a few people from work (including the cutie!) and we had a blast! He now knows that I am attracted to him and apparently he likes me but has done the whole "work relationship" before where it didn't go very well so he'd never do it again. Figures! Oh well.....
What else? Hmmmmmm.... oh I have a strange one. The more time I spend with S, the more it's helping me get over him. Weird or what? Can't explain it really but I'm not complaining. I don't want to be with him if he doesn't want to be with me. Finally.
Happy Tuesday!!
The Rules:
1. You can only say YES or NO!
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone comments to the entry and asks.
Taken a picture naked? Yes
Made out with a member of the same sex? No
Danced in front of your mirror? Yes
Told a lie? Yes
Gotten in a car with people you just met? Yes
Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes
Been arrested? No
Left your house without telling your parents? Yes
Ditched school to do something more fun? Yes
Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes
Seen someone die? No
Kissed a picture? Yes
Slept in until 3? Yes
Touched a snake? No
Ran a red light? Yes
Had detention? Yes
Pole danced? No
Been lost? Yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes
Kissed in the rain? No
Sang in the shower? Yes
Got your tongue stuck to a pole? No
Ever gone to school partially naked? No
Sat on a roof top? Yes
Played chicken? No
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Yes
Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? Yes
Broken a bone? no
Mooned/flashed someone? Yes
Forgotten someone's name? Yes
Slept naked? Yes
Blacked out from drinking? Yes
Played a prank on someone? Yes
Felt like killing someone? Yes
Made a parent cry? Yes
Cried over someone? Yes
Had sex more than 5 times in one day? No
Had/Have a dog? Yes
Been in a band? No
Drank 25 sodas in a day....aka POP? No
Shot a gun? No
1. You can only say YES or NO!
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone comments to the entry and asks.
Taken a picture naked? Yes
Made out with a member of the same sex? No
Danced in front of your mirror? Yes
Told a lie? Yes
Gotten in a car with people you just met? Yes
Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes
Been arrested? No
Left your house without telling your parents? Yes
Ditched school to do something more fun? Yes
Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes
Seen someone die? No
Kissed a picture? Yes
Slept in until 3? Yes
Touched a snake? No
Ran a red light? Yes
Had detention? Yes
Pole danced? No
Been lost? Yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes
Kissed in the rain? No
Sang in the shower? Yes
Got your tongue stuck to a pole? No
Ever gone to school partially naked? No
Sat on a roof top? Yes
Played chicken? No
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Yes
Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? Yes
Broken a bone? no
Mooned/flashed someone? Yes
Forgotten someone's name? Yes
Slept naked? Yes
Blacked out from drinking? Yes
Played a prank on someone? Yes
Felt like killing someone? Yes
Made a parent cry? Yes
Cried over someone? Yes
Had sex more than 5 times in one day? No
Had/Have a dog? Yes
Been in a band? No
Drank 25 sodas in a day....aka POP? No
Shot a gun? No
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Happy Hump Day!
Well I feel like I'm a bit boring lately.... oh wait.... I've always thought that. Oh well, it feels great getting my thoughts out.
Moving on and moving up.... went and met a new guy last night. Really cute and we seemed to get along pretty good but kind of up in the air about how it went. Guess only time will tell.
It's funny that with all the guys I've met they all have such different qualities. No two have even been similar and I've probably gone and met 20+ guys by now. They have been varying shapes and sizes and at different stages of life. Different ages, careers, etc.... it's been interesting to say the least.
Now if I could find one where there is a mutual attraction. One where he's into me as much as I'm into him - and not just where he thinks he is, lures me in and then decides that no, he's not. Now that would be grand.
Maybe I should keep flirting with the cutie at work? Oh definately :)
Moving on and moving up.... went and met a new guy last night. Really cute and we seemed to get along pretty good but kind of up in the air about how it went. Guess only time will tell.
It's funny that with all the guys I've met they all have such different qualities. No two have even been similar and I've probably gone and met 20+ guys by now. They have been varying shapes and sizes and at different stages of life. Different ages, careers, etc.... it's been interesting to say the least.
Now if I could find one where there is a mutual attraction. One where he's into me as much as I'm into him - and not just where he thinks he is, lures me in and then decides that no, he's not. Now that would be grand.
Maybe I should keep flirting with the cutie at work? Oh definately :)
Saturday, April 01, 2006
I did it!
Well I am officially 30. Wow. I don't really feel a day over 19 but whatever!
I feel great. Really great. Yay. Had an absolutely wonderful birthday and was welcomed to my 30's wholeheartedly. I truly felt completely loved and blessed all day. And that will continue tonight when 20-30 of my closest friends come and celebrate with me :)
Ain't life grand?
I feel great. Really great. Yay. Had an absolutely wonderful birthday and was welcomed to my 30's wholeheartedly. I truly felt completely loved and blessed all day. And that will continue tonight when 20-30 of my closest friends come and celebrate with me :)
Ain't life grand?
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Ok... officially ok now :)
Ha ha
Yup... woke up feeling great! I may get knocked down but I sure don't stay there very long!
I'm sure I'll still have sad moments but c'mon it was only a month long relationship. :) Yes, I need to do that to remind myself not to take certain things too damn seriously.
It probably helps that I spent the day flirting with a cutie at work ;)
Hey whatever works I say!
Yup... woke up feeling great! I may get knocked down but I sure don't stay there very long!
I'm sure I'll still have sad moments but c'mon it was only a month long relationship. :) Yes, I need to do that to remind myself not to take certain things too damn seriously.
It probably helps that I spent the day flirting with a cutie at work ;)
Hey whatever works I say!
Oy
Had a bit of relapse but after having a complete and utter meltdown last night on the phone with my sis (thanks again sweetie) I am once again feeling better. One step forward, two back it seems. I guess I'm a bit hesitant of hanging out with S, which I did on friday and sunday. Made me remember how much I miss him and love just hanging out with him. Even if it's like sunday where we literally just lazed around for hours and hours. I guess only time will tell to see if I can do this.
On other news.... 2 days till 30! Wow. I have a great weekend planned too. Friday I'm hanging out with S, as this was planned pre-breakup. Just a nice relaxing night is all I want. And I'm happy to be spending it with him. Then saturday is the big party! Looks like about 30 people are coming so I'm definately feeling the love! Hopefully I'm feeling better and am up for drinking!
Happy hump day all!!
On other news.... 2 days till 30! Wow. I have a great weekend planned too. Friday I'm hanging out with S, as this was planned pre-breakup. Just a nice relaxing night is all I want. And I'm happy to be spending it with him. Then saturday is the big party! Looks like about 30 people are coming so I'm definately feeling the love! Hopefully I'm feeling better and am up for drinking!
Happy hump day all!!
Sunday, March 26, 2006
Sundays are once again my favorite day....
I really do love sundays.
I have a few errands to run, brunch with a friend, lazy afternoon planned and then home tonight to get ready for the work week. So exciting but just the way I like it.
As of friday, I am officially back to me. I love it. I feel great and even though I still get sad about S, we are talking and giving this "friends" thing a try. Could be an interesting road but only time will tell.
I'm already talking to a couple of new guys but I know that my heart just isn't in it, not yet anyways.
Friday is my birthday.... wow... finally here. I have been excited about my 30's for a couple of years now (I know - crazy girl I am!) and it's finally here. I feel like my life is really about to start. Not sure if that makes any sense but I truly feel like these are going to be some of the best years of my life :) How's that for positive thinking? Sometimes I annoy myself with all my perkiness! Yes I get down sometimes but I really do NOT stay there long. Honestly, there's no point. It's like holding a grudge or being angry - no freakin point.
I've had a lovely visit with my sis the past few days.... we have just laughed so damn much it's kind of scary. Accompanied her to a wonderful wedding celebration yesterday of a dear old friend and everything went wonderfully. It's absolutely wonderful when you go to a wedding for a couple you know should be together.
Sis was highly intoxicated but she was highly entertaining :)
Happy sunday all!
I have a few errands to run, brunch with a friend, lazy afternoon planned and then home tonight to get ready for the work week. So exciting but just the way I like it.
As of friday, I am officially back to me. I love it. I feel great and even though I still get sad about S, we are talking and giving this "friends" thing a try. Could be an interesting road but only time will tell.
I'm already talking to a couple of new guys but I know that my heart just isn't in it, not yet anyways.
Friday is my birthday.... wow... finally here. I have been excited about my 30's for a couple of years now (I know - crazy girl I am!) and it's finally here. I feel like my life is really about to start. Not sure if that makes any sense but I truly feel like these are going to be some of the best years of my life :) How's that for positive thinking? Sometimes I annoy myself with all my perkiness! Yes I get down sometimes but I really do NOT stay there long. Honestly, there's no point. It's like holding a grudge or being angry - no freakin point.
I've had a lovely visit with my sis the past few days.... we have just laughed so damn much it's kind of scary. Accompanied her to a wonderful wedding celebration yesterday of a dear old friend and everything went wonderfully. It's absolutely wonderful when you go to a wedding for a couple you know should be together.
Sis was highly intoxicated but she was highly entertaining :)
Happy sunday all!
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Almost there.....
Yay! Getting better by the day.... I still can't believe how hard this hit me. I am still dealing with the shock of it all I guess.
And after having a really good chat with S tonight I am feeling a lot better. We bought our tickets to the Mariners game and I am sooooo excited to go. Two weeks to go!! And both of us miss eachother but it's just not the right time. Such is life right? And... we're still going to do something on my birthday which makes me very happy as I was starting to think I'd be sitting at home alone because the party is planned for the saturday. But we are going to do something - no idea what but it was the plan so we're sticking to it. Yay.
I don't have to work tomorrow either :) Yay! Took it off to hang with my sis (who is currently passed out in bed) and run errands all day. We're going to stop in to see my dad and maybe get him to take us for lunch :)
Think it's time for bed.....
And after having a really good chat with S tonight I am feeling a lot better. We bought our tickets to the Mariners game and I am sooooo excited to go. Two weeks to go!! And both of us miss eachother but it's just not the right time. Such is life right? And... we're still going to do something on my birthday which makes me very happy as I was starting to think I'd be sitting at home alone because the party is planned for the saturday. But we are going to do something - no idea what but it was the plan so we're sticking to it. Yay.
I don't have to work tomorrow either :) Yay! Took it off to hang with my sis (who is currently passed out in bed) and run errands all day. We're going to stop in to see my dad and maybe get him to take us for lunch :)
Think it's time for bed.....
Sunday, March 19, 2006
snap out of it already!
I really want this hollow and nauseous feelings to go away - and now dammit!
Everyone must think I'm the most pathetic thing around.... but even though it was only 4 and a half weeks with him it felt like more and we really truly had a good connection. Just not good enough I guess :(
I have had no appetite for 3 days..... and a nauseous feeling too. I've almost thrown up probably 10 times. WTF? I'm embarassed to even admit to that actually.
I really look forward to being back to normal.... I was fine and happy before him and I will be that way again. Just don't have the patience anymore.
Ugh.
I am going to keep myself busy this week with the gym and groceries on monday, work both jobs on tuesday, then my sister is here for the rest of the week and she better keep me occupied. I might even take wednesday off to shop with her - the only thing holding me back is she's shopping at the mall where S works. Ugh.
Off to clean - just bought myself an early birthday present - a vacuum!!! Woohoo!
Everyone must think I'm the most pathetic thing around.... but even though it was only 4 and a half weeks with him it felt like more and we really truly had a good connection. Just not good enough I guess :(
I have had no appetite for 3 days..... and a nauseous feeling too. I've almost thrown up probably 10 times. WTF? I'm embarassed to even admit to that actually.
I really look forward to being back to normal.... I was fine and happy before him and I will be that way again. Just don't have the patience anymore.
Ugh.
I am going to keep myself busy this week with the gym and groceries on monday, work both jobs on tuesday, then my sister is here for the rest of the week and she better keep me occupied. I might even take wednesday off to shop with her - the only thing holding me back is she's shopping at the mall where S works. Ugh.
Off to clean - just bought myself an early birthday present - a vacuum!!! Woohoo!
Saturday, March 18, 2006
On the mend.....
I've been a little down in the dumps the last couple of days but I'm clawing out of it now. It all just came as such a shock as I thought things were great. And they were great. He needs to be alone right now and he saw that we were going in opposite directions with me sharing more with him but him not recriprocating. He's still a bit hung up on the ex among other financial things he needs to take care of. So... last night I went to meet him and we walked and talked for over 2 hours and I am feeling much better about things. Still sad and I miss him terribly but I've been through worse so I know I'll be fine. It was only a month but it was a very intense month for both of us and right now I just miss talking and seeing him every day. Felt more like 6 months really. It has however showed me that I am finally ready for something serious and has showed me the kind of connection I want and what kind of guy I want.
And.... on April 16th I will be officially divorced! The papers came yesterday. I somehow knew when I went to get my mail that they were going to be there too. Weird.
And.... on April 16th I will be officially divorced! The papers came yesterday. I somehow knew when I went to get my mail that they were going to be there too. Weird.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
:(
Well it's over. Yup. Very short lived.
He came out to my place last night and when I picked him up he made me pull over so we could *talk*. I should have known that that couldn't be good.
I am so confused and hurt and angry and downright heartbroken right now I can't even post the details.
But after 1 blissful month I am single once more. And I'm ok with that - but I miss him already. How pathetic.
He came out to my place last night and when I picked him up he made me pull over so we could *talk*. I should have known that that couldn't be good.
I am so confused and hurt and angry and downright heartbroken right now I can't even post the details.
But after 1 blissful month I am single once more. And I'm ok with that - but I miss him already. How pathetic.
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Less than 3 weeks....
The countdown is on for the 31st..... this last year has been one of the best in my life and I know it's only going to get better from here on out. It's already good... I'm ready for it to be great.
Not much new.... still spending lots of time with S..... I do need to start taking a night or two off now and then though as I never see my friends anymore and that's not good. But when you start a new relationship it happens.... I would never drop them for a guy. We really enjoy eachothers company and he makes me laugh and feel absolutely adored. And I can't keep my hands off of him either :)
And I'm contemplating a career move.... I don't really consider myself in a *career* right now but I guess I am. I have an opportunity with a new company though and the only thing really holding me back are the commute and leaving all the people at my current job. I want to see how my year review goes and what they are going to offer me in terms of money. I need more and I deserve more and if it doesn't look like it's going to happen then that might be the push I need to get out of there.
Off to check dinner and wake up S who is napping peacefully in the bedroom :)
Not much new.... still spending lots of time with S..... I do need to start taking a night or two off now and then though as I never see my friends anymore and that's not good. But when you start a new relationship it happens.... I would never drop them for a guy. We really enjoy eachothers company and he makes me laugh and feel absolutely adored. And I can't keep my hands off of him either :)
And I'm contemplating a career move.... I don't really consider myself in a *career* right now but I guess I am. I have an opportunity with a new company though and the only thing really holding me back are the commute and leaving all the people at my current job. I want to see how my year review goes and what they are going to offer me in terms of money. I need more and I deserve more and if it doesn't look like it's going to happen then that might be the push I need to get out of there.
Off to check dinner and wake up S who is napping peacefully in the bedroom :)
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Ooops!
So after my big pasta and bread dinner I proceeded to pass out by 9:30 on the couch. That'll teach me to make promises I can't keep.
So things are going really well with S, and he's officially my boyfriend. I feel so young saying that :) Not that I'm old but I haven't had a "boyfriend" for 5 years - the year I got married.
He's amazing..... and well just that. He has opened up a whole other world to me. Not just for his lifestyle but for the attention he gives me. He always makes sure my needs are met and that I'm comfortable etc. I'm more than smitten but that's all I'm going to say about that.
On another note, we're still waiting for the divorce papers to come. Poor R must be just freaking out as he may not get to apply for a work visa and he leaves next month.
And.... less than 4 weeks to the big 3 0 !!! Yahoo.... I should get going on my tattoo soon.
So things are going really well with S, and he's officially my boyfriend. I feel so young saying that :) Not that I'm old but I haven't had a "boyfriend" for 5 years - the year I got married.
He's amazing..... and well just that. He has opened up a whole other world to me. Not just for his lifestyle but for the attention he gives me. He always makes sure my needs are met and that I'm comfortable etc. I'm more than smitten but that's all I'm going to say about that.
On another note, we're still waiting for the divorce papers to come. Poor R must be just freaking out as he may not get to apply for a work visa and he leaves next month.
And.... less than 4 weeks to the big 3 0 !!! Yahoo.... I should get going on my tattoo soon.
Monday, March 06, 2006
Quick post
Just a quick post.... will be alone tonight so I will actually post something :)
Things are good... real good.
Things are good... real good.
Friday, February 24, 2006
well.
I always had the idea in my head that "if you stop looking - then you'll find love". I'm not so sure anymore. I'm not saying I'm in love but I could see it happening. I'm smitten. Yes. I am.
Not sure what else to write.... been a bit busy with this new little *venture*. And I'm really getting used to having a body next to me again at night. Something I didn't think I really cared about but apparently I do.
Not sure what else to write.... been a bit busy with this new little *venture*. And I'm really getting used to having a body next to me again at night. Something I didn't think I really cared about but apparently I do.
Monday, February 20, 2006
Wow... so much has changed this past week.
Buddy finally got the hint... we still chat a bit but I'm trying not to let him get any hopes of anything happening between us. I wish the other guy I mentioned would get the drift too but we can't get everything we want right?
So... I left off with the guy I had met two weeks ago. We did hit it off but I could tell he really wasn't that into me. Hung out a few more nights and did the *cuddle* thing and then he put my car radio into my car which was nice. But.... I don't think it's there for either of us.
Then.... when I wasn't really expecting it.... I met S. Hmmmm.... I've only known him a week and we already have such a connection it's really quite scary. It has been a very intense 8 days.... but I'm not running scared yet so I am going to take that as a sign. A very, very good sign.
And leave it at that.
Buddy finally got the hint... we still chat a bit but I'm trying not to let him get any hopes of anything happening between us. I wish the other guy I mentioned would get the drift too but we can't get everything we want right?
So... I left off with the guy I had met two weeks ago. We did hit it off but I could tell he really wasn't that into me. Hung out a few more nights and did the *cuddle* thing and then he put my car radio into my car which was nice. But.... I don't think it's there for either of us.
Then.... when I wasn't really expecting it.... I met S. Hmmmm.... I've only known him a week and we already have such a connection it's really quite scary. It has been a very intense 8 days.... but I'm not running scared yet so I am going to take that as a sign. A very, very good sign.
And leave it at that.
Saturday, February 11, 2006
I love London...
| You Belong in London |
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What City Do You Belong In?
I love London...
| You Belong in London |
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What City Do You Belong In?
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Why me?
I really do NOT get it. I can't win for trying at dating. EVERY single guy that I've wanted (only been a couple but not the point) it has NOT been mutual. But I have NO problem attracting guys that I could do without.
I have been trying to end things with someone for 1 week now. Seriously. Wow. I am too nice. WHY? Well because I do not want to hurt anyone. And I did feel a connection with this guy as we chatted for so long before meeting but it's not there for me. I can't force it. He doesn't listen. He is far too eager to please. Says things he *thinks* I want to hear. Etc. You get my drift. It's really quite maddening. We are currently going over this all AGAIN on msn right now - this very minute. Ack - will it ever end?
And there is another guy that I met on sunday that is just a bit too much already for me. Talking about taking trips and all this mumbo jumbo. Are you for real buddy? We have spent one afternoon together and you are telling me to dream about you and that you miss me? WTF?
What is it with these guys that are so desperate to be in a relationship? I thought they didn't exist? And what is wrong with me that I don't jump at these offerings? Have I really shut myself off that much that I can't accept this? Or have I learned my lesson and will be picking my next partner with much more care? Jeesh.
Purposely NOT posting about the guy I met last night. Really like him but not getting excited - yet. If I post it here then I might jinx it or my dear friend Murphy will show up. Have you met him yet? He's my friend.
I have been trying to end things with someone for 1 week now. Seriously. Wow. I am too nice. WHY? Well because I do not want to hurt anyone. And I did feel a connection with this guy as we chatted for so long before meeting but it's not there for me. I can't force it. He doesn't listen. He is far too eager to please. Says things he *thinks* I want to hear. Etc. You get my drift. It's really quite maddening. We are currently going over this all AGAIN on msn right now - this very minute. Ack - will it ever end?
And there is another guy that I met on sunday that is just a bit too much already for me. Talking about taking trips and all this mumbo jumbo. Are you for real buddy? We have spent one afternoon together and you are telling me to dream about you and that you miss me? WTF?
What is it with these guys that are so desperate to be in a relationship? I thought they didn't exist? And what is wrong with me that I don't jump at these offerings? Have I really shut myself off that much that I can't accept this? Or have I learned my lesson and will be picking my next partner with much more care? Jeesh.
Purposely NOT posting about the guy I met last night. Really like him but not getting excited - yet. If I post it here then I might jinx it or my dear friend Murphy will show up. Have you met him yet? He's my friend.
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
I hate the #4
I'm more of a 3 kind of gal :)
FOUR JOBS I HAVE HAD
Data Entry. Insurance Industry. First *real* job for the summer before grade 12.
Customer Service @ Canadian Tire. 2 years with a lot of good and bad. Met my soon to be ex-hubby there but I also got a free trip to Vegas.
Cashier @ Lordco. Oooh this had to be the worst. At least I only worked there for 3 months.
Retail. Wow... LOVE the discount - HATE the job. There's a reason I don't do it anymore.
FOUR MOVIES I CAN WATCH OVER AND OVER
Sliding Doors
Wedding Singer
Shawshank Redemption
Practical Magic
FOUR PLACES I HAVE LIVED
Maple Ridge, BC
Coquitlam, BC
Cloverdale, BC
Langley, BC
FOUR TV SHOWS I LOVE
Gilmore Girls
Amazing Race
Grey's Anatomy
Medium
FOUR PLACES I HAVE VACATIONED
Las Vegas, NV
Jamaica
Europe - all over
My parents cabin near my sister :)
FOUR OF MY FAVORITE THINGS TO EAT
Ice Cream
Subway
Eggs
Chicken
FOUR SITES I VISIT DAILY
Jen
POF
Babes
LJT
FOUR JOBS I HAVE HAD
Data Entry. Insurance Industry. First *real* job for the summer before grade 12.
Customer Service @ Canadian Tire. 2 years with a lot of good and bad. Met my soon to be ex-hubby there but I also got a free trip to Vegas.
Cashier @ Lordco. Oooh this had to be the worst. At least I only worked there for 3 months.
Retail. Wow... LOVE the discount - HATE the job. There's a reason I don't do it anymore.
FOUR MOVIES I CAN WATCH OVER AND OVER
Sliding Doors
Wedding Singer
Shawshank Redemption
Practical Magic
FOUR PLACES I HAVE LIVED
Maple Ridge, BC
Coquitlam, BC
Cloverdale, BC
Langley, BC
FOUR TV SHOWS I LOVE
Gilmore Girls
Amazing Race
Grey's Anatomy
Medium
FOUR PLACES I HAVE VACATIONED
Las Vegas, NV
Jamaica
Europe - all over
My parents cabin near my sister :)
FOUR OF MY FAVORITE THINGS TO EAT
Ice Cream
Subway
Eggs
Chicken
FOUR SITES I VISIT DAILY
Jen
POF
Babes
LJT
Thursday, February 02, 2006
What a day...
Well I was in a foul mood ALL day... well the 2nd part for sure. I feel just horrible about how I talked to a few people at work today. I'm just so frustrated lately with the lack of communication and expectations. And then, when I was at my part time job tonight my full time boss called and asked about a job that didn't go and why he didn't know about it. Oy. Well I never really screw up but it still doesn't make me feel any better.
So.. I've decided that I want out of my funk and will be bright eyed and bushy tailed tomorrow :)
Now here's hoping it works!
So.. I've decided that I want out of my funk and will be bright eyed and bushy tailed tomorrow :)
Now here's hoping it works!
Am I really the bad person I think I am? Well maybe sometimes...
So... I ended it. I think we're going to stay friends but I just don't want to give him false hope. The saddest part? I know exactly how he feels. You always want what you can't have. It's such a crazy circle. Murphy's Law really - story of my life.
Oh well.... you never know - maybe one of these days I'll come across someone and there will be a mutual liking :) A girl can dream eh?
On another disturbing note.... I'm frustrated with my dear friend. I really just don't know what to do. I know he didn't mean too but he's really made some comments that hurt. I guess he just doesn't have much faith in me and what I'm capable of. Hence the "bad person" title. He makes me feel like that's me and that I am not capable of any empathy. I guess it goes to show you how little he really knows about me. And honestly I'm not really sure what is going to happen. He's hurting and I tried to be there for him - got shot down and insulted - and I'm not sure how much of that I can take.
Long day ahead.... working part time after work so I'm working from 8am to 10 pm with about 30 mins off in there which will be spent in my car. Ugh. Oh well.. need the money!
Oh well.... you never know - maybe one of these days I'll come across someone and there will be a mutual liking :) A girl can dream eh?
On another disturbing note.... I'm frustrated with my dear friend. I really just don't know what to do. I know he didn't mean too but he's really made some comments that hurt. I guess he just doesn't have much faith in me and what I'm capable of. Hence the "bad person" title. He makes me feel like that's me and that I am not capable of any empathy. I guess it goes to show you how little he really knows about me. And honestly I'm not really sure what is going to happen. He's hurting and I tried to be there for him - got shot down and insulted - and I'm not sure how much of that I can take.
Long day ahead.... working part time after work so I'm working from 8am to 10 pm with about 30 mins off in there which will be spent in my car. Ugh. Oh well.. need the money!
Monday, January 30, 2006
Hmmmmm
So... I have decided to end things with #9. It's just not there for me at all. I feel horrible because there are actually a few other reasons too but he has no idea. And I have NO idea of when I'm going to do it. :(
Yuck
Yuck
Yuck
On happier news.... I'm the proud mama of two male betta fish. Each in their own little tanks :)
I will be moving on to a normal tank and some hopefully cool fish in the next few months but for now they are fun. And.. the best part? They're red! Yep - I'm a dork!
Yuck
Yuck
Yuck
On happier news.... I'm the proud mama of two male betta fish. Each in their own little tanks :)
I will be moving on to a normal tank and some hopefully cool fish in the next few months but for now they are fun. And.. the best part? They're red! Yep - I'm a dork!
Friday, January 27, 2006
TGIF!
Well I am very happy the weekend is upon us. Ahhhhh. Been a nice week overall but busy as hell.
And now, it's here. And it's payday. And we have our monthly potluck at work. All good stuff. More good stuff too but can't mention it yet. Heeeeee
Things are good with #9...... coming along quite nicely actually. Still not entirely sure I want what he wants but that's why I'm taking it slow. And my heart is still thinking about #7 so until I get that sorted out I will not make anything official.
I guess only time will tell.....
Happy Friday!!
And now, it's here. And it's payday. And we have our monthly potluck at work. All good stuff. More good stuff too but can't mention it yet. Heeeeee
Things are good with #9...... coming along quite nicely actually. Still not entirely sure I want what he wants but that's why I'm taking it slow. And my heart is still thinking about #7 so until I get that sorted out I will not make anything official.
I guess only time will tell.....
Happy Friday!!
Sunday, January 22, 2006
But I do have a life... really I do!
(1) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(2) Grease
(3) Pirates of the Caribbean
() Boondock Saints
(4) The Mexican
(5) Fight Club
(6) Starsky and Hutch
(7) Neverending Story
(8) Blazing Saddles
(9) AirplaneSection
1: 6
(10) The Princess Bride
( ) Young Frankenstein
() AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgundy
(11) Napoleon Dynamite
(12) Saw
() White Noise
(13 ) White Oleander
(14) Anger Management
(15) 50 First Dates
( ) Jason XSection
2: 5
(16) Scream
(17) Scream 2
(18 ) Scream 3
(19) Scary Movie
(20)Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
(21) American Pie
(22)American Pie 2
(23 )American Wedding
(24) Harry PotterSection
3: 4
() Harry Potter 2
() Harry Potter 3
( )Harry Potter 4
()Resident Evil I
( )Resident Evil 2
(25) The Wedding Singer
(26 )Little Black Book
(27) the village() Donnie Darko
( ) Lilo & StitchSection
4: 4
(28) Finding Nemo
(29 ) Finding Neverland
( ) 13 Ghosts
(30) Signs
(31) The Grinch Who Stole Christmas
(32) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(33) White Chicks
(34) Butterfly Effect
(35) Thirteen Going on 30
() I, RobotSection
5: 4
( 36) Dodgeball:
( 37) Universal Soldier
() A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(38) Along Came Polly
(39) Deep Impact
(40) KingPin
(41) Never Been Kissed
(42) Meet The Parents
(43) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy NightsSection
6: 5
(44)A Cinderella Story
( ) The Terminal
( ) the Lizzie McGuire Movie
( )Passport to Paris
(45) Dumb & Dumber
() Dumb & Dumberer
(46) Final Destination
(47 ) Final Destination 2
(48) Halloween
(49) The RingSection
7: 7
(50)The Ring 2
() Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
( 51) Practical magic
() Chicago
(52 ) Ghost Ship
(53) From Hell
( ) Hellboy
(54) Secret Window
() I Am Sam
(55) The Whole Nine YardsSection
8: 2
(56) The Day After Tomorrow
(57) Child's Play
() Bride of Chucky
(58) Ten Things I Hate About You
(59) Just Married
(60) Gothika
(61) Nightmare on Elm Street
(62) Sixteen Candles
( ) Coach Carter
(63) Bad BoysSection
9: 7
( )Bad Boys 2
(64 ) Joy Ride
(65) se7en
(66) Oceans eleven
( 67) Ocean's Twelve
(68 ) Identity
(69 ) Lone Star
(70 ) Bedazzled
() Predator I
() Predator IISection
10: 1
(71) Independence Day
(72) Cujo
(73 ) A Bronx Tale
( )Darkness Falls
(74) Christine
(75) ET
(76)Children of the Corn
(77) My Boss' daughter.
(78 ) Maid in Manhattan
( ) FrailtySection
11: 4
( ) Best Bet
(79 ) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(80) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
(81) Sideways
(82) Mars Attacks
() Event Horizon
(83 ) Ever After
(84) Forrest Gump
(85) Big Trouble in Little ChinaSection
12: 6
(86) X-Men
() X-2
(87 ) Jeepers Creepers
(88 ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(89) Catch Me If You Can
(90) The Others
(91) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
(92) Cruel Intentions
(93)The Hot ChickSection
13: 7
( 94) Swimfan
() Miracle
(95) Old School
(96) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
(97) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(98) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(99) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(100)Walk to Remember
( ) BoogeymanSection
14: 5
(101 ) Hitch
(102) The Fifth Element
(103) Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
(104)Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
() Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
(105) Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
(106) Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(107) Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi
(108) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swimming with SharksSection
15: 8
(109 ) Air Force One
( 110) For Richer or Poorer
( 111) Trainspotting
(112 ) People Under the Stairs
() Blue Velvet
(113) Sound of Music
(114) Parent Trap 1
(115) Parent Trap 2
() The Burbs
(116) The TerminatorSection
16: 4
(117) Empire Records
() SLC Punk
(118) Meet Joe Black
() Nightmare Before Christmas
(119) The Silence of the Lambs
(120 ) Sleepy Hollow
(121) I Heart Huckabees (only movie I’ve ever STOPPED watching so technically I haven’t seen it!
( ) 24 Hour Party People
(122 ) Blood In Blood Out
(123) The Virgin Suicides
( ) Battle Royale
Well.... maybe not.
(2) Grease
(3) Pirates of the Caribbean
() Boondock Saints
(4) The Mexican
(5) Fight Club
(6) Starsky and Hutch
(7) Neverending Story
(8) Blazing Saddles
(9) AirplaneSection
1: 6
(10) The Princess Bride
( ) Young Frankenstein
() AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgundy
(11) Napoleon Dynamite
(12) Saw
() White Noise
(13 ) White Oleander
(14) Anger Management
(15) 50 First Dates
( ) Jason XSection
2: 5
(16) Scream
(17) Scream 2
(18 ) Scream 3
(19) Scary Movie
(20)Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
(21) American Pie
(22)American Pie 2
(23 )American Wedding
(24) Harry PotterSection
3: 4
() Harry Potter 2
() Harry Potter 3
( )Harry Potter 4
()Resident Evil I
( )Resident Evil 2
(25) The Wedding Singer
(26 )Little Black Book
(27) the village() Donnie Darko
( ) Lilo & StitchSection
4: 4
(28) Finding Nemo
(29 ) Finding Neverland
( ) 13 Ghosts
(30) Signs
(31) The Grinch Who Stole Christmas
(32) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(33) White Chicks
(34) Butterfly Effect
(35) Thirteen Going on 30
() I, RobotSection
5: 4
( 36) Dodgeball:
( 37) Universal Soldier
() A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(38) Along Came Polly
(39) Deep Impact
(40) KingPin
(41) Never Been Kissed
(42) Meet The Parents
(43) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy NightsSection
6: 5
(44)A Cinderella Story
( ) The Terminal
( ) the Lizzie McGuire Movie
( )Passport to Paris
(45) Dumb & Dumber
() Dumb & Dumberer
(46) Final Destination
(47 ) Final Destination 2
(48) Halloween
(49) The RingSection
7: 7
(50)The Ring 2
() Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
( 51) Practical magic
() Chicago
(52 ) Ghost Ship
(53) From Hell
( ) Hellboy
(54) Secret Window
() I Am Sam
(55) The Whole Nine YardsSection
8: 2
(56) The Day After Tomorrow
(57) Child's Play
() Bride of Chucky
(58) Ten Things I Hate About You
(59) Just Married
(60) Gothika
(61) Nightmare on Elm Street
(62) Sixteen Candles
( ) Coach Carter
(63) Bad BoysSection
9: 7
( )Bad Boys 2
(64 ) Joy Ride
(65) se7en
(66) Oceans eleven
( 67) Ocean's Twelve
(68 ) Identity
(69 ) Lone Star
(70 ) Bedazzled
() Predator I
() Predator IISection
10: 1
(71) Independence Day
(72) Cujo
(73 ) A Bronx Tale
( )Darkness Falls
(74) Christine
(75) ET
(76)Children of the Corn
(77) My Boss' daughter.
(78 ) Maid in Manhattan
( ) FrailtySection
11: 4
( ) Best Bet
(79 ) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(80) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
(81) Sideways
(82) Mars Attacks
() Event Horizon
(83 ) Ever After
(84) Forrest Gump
(85) Big Trouble in Little ChinaSection
12: 6
(86) X-Men
() X-2
(87 ) Jeepers Creepers
(88 ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(89) Catch Me If You Can
(90) The Others
(91) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
(92) Cruel Intentions
(93)The Hot ChickSection
13: 7
( 94) Swimfan
() Miracle
(95) Old School
(96) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
(97) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(98) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(99) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(100)Walk to Remember
( ) BoogeymanSection
14: 5
(101 ) Hitch
(102) The Fifth Element
(103) Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
(104)Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
() Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
(105) Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
(106) Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(107) Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi
(108) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swimming with SharksSection
15: 8
(109 ) Air Force One
( 110) For Richer or Poorer
( 111) Trainspotting
(112 ) People Under the Stairs
() Blue Velvet
(113) Sound of Music
(114) Parent Trap 1
(115) Parent Trap 2
() The Burbs
(116) The TerminatorSection
16: 4
(117) Empire Records
() SLC Punk
(118) Meet Joe Black
() Nightmare Before Christmas
(119) The Silence of the Lambs
(120 ) Sleepy Hollow
(121) I Heart Huckabees (only movie I’ve ever STOPPED watching so technically I haven’t seen it!
( ) 24 Hour Party People
(122 ) Blood In Blood Out
(123) The Virgin Suicides
( ) Battle Royale
Well.... maybe not.
He's nice....
Wow .... I'm not sure if this is long term or what but I enjoy his company and could definately kiss him for hours upon hours. Ha ha
Had a nice weekend..... not going into details here but I know he's into me which is definately nice :) And I think I'm into him. Taking it slow in regards to feelings as it's a whole new thing for me.
And now it's sunday night... back to work tomorrow..... with my new and improved hours! Yay! Earlier quitting time now!
Had a nice weekend..... not going into details here but I know he's into me which is definately nice :) And I think I'm into him. Taking it slow in regards to feelings as it's a whole new thing for me.
And now it's sunday night... back to work tomorrow..... with my new and improved hours! Yay! Earlier quitting time now!
Saturday, January 21, 2006
B.O.R.I.N.G
Yup... I'm boring.... but I love it.
Well some exciting news..... in about 5 to 6 weeks I will be officially divorced. Yay! I feel this big weight lifted and will be very happy when I'm officially single again. I think it'll be a great way to start my 30's! Had a really good talk with Ryan yesterday too. We actually got off the phone and he called right back to go over something. He wanted me to know who he was going traveling with - I told him I knew. And that I was A-OK with things..... I really am. And I think he knows that now. What a difference a year makes.
Nothing much else exciting..... other than my usual crushes. One in particular I'd like to do something about but we will see how that pans out.
Date tonight with a guy that I have a nice connection with.... nervous and scared that there will be no attraction in person. Oh well I guess - only way to find out.
Still thinking about #7....... I'm sure that won't go away overnight but I know it will pass, eventually I hope!
Well some exciting news..... in about 5 to 6 weeks I will be officially divorced. Yay! I feel this big weight lifted and will be very happy when I'm officially single again. I think it'll be a great way to start my 30's! Had a really good talk with Ryan yesterday too. We actually got off the phone and he called right back to go over something. He wanted me to know who he was going traveling with - I told him I knew. And that I was A-OK with things..... I really am. And I think he knows that now. What a difference a year makes.
Nothing much else exciting..... other than my usual crushes. One in particular I'd like to do something about but we will see how that pans out.
Date tonight with a guy that I have a nice connection with.... nervous and scared that there will be no attraction in person. Oh well I guess - only way to find out.
Still thinking about #7....... I'm sure that won't go away overnight but I know it will pass, eventually I hope!
Sunday, January 15, 2006
*sigh*
So... not a whole lot to post about. Had a pretty boring weekend.
Friday night I hit the video store and rented Red Eye - then proceeded to fall asleep watching it. I've been doing this a lot lately.
Saturday I woke up and instead of running the errands I needed to run... I chatted all damn day. I cleaned too but it seemed that every time I turned around someone wanted to talk to me. Miss Popularity. It was nice but I was very very unproductive. Then I finally showered, went out and bought some much needed cleaning supplies, and then hit the Naughty but Nice Show downtown. I have to say I was a bit disappointed. Too many people. Every booth the same stuff. And just too damn busy. Lasted a half hour and then left. We then hit the local pub and had a couple drinks but ended up seeing a couple guys that we really didn't want to see so we left. Ended up next door at the video store and bought a few really cheap movies. Came home and finally made it through Red Eye. Yay!
Today I woke up and cleaned. Then finally I got out to get some groceries so I could feed the masses. Hosted a candle party and got some cool stuff coming now :) More red for my already very red apartment. Heeeeeeeee
Now I'm being a lazy fool.... did NOT follow my eating today at all. Cookies in the house - not good!
Back on track tomorrow for sure... I'm doing well.
Friday night I hit the video store and rented Red Eye - then proceeded to fall asleep watching it. I've been doing this a lot lately.
Saturday I woke up and instead of running the errands I needed to run... I chatted all damn day. I cleaned too but it seemed that every time I turned around someone wanted to talk to me. Miss Popularity. It was nice but I was very very unproductive. Then I finally showered, went out and bought some much needed cleaning supplies, and then hit the Naughty but Nice Show downtown. I have to say I was a bit disappointed. Too many people. Every booth the same stuff. And just too damn busy. Lasted a half hour and then left. We then hit the local pub and had a couple drinks but ended up seeing a couple guys that we really didn't want to see so we left. Ended up next door at the video store and bought a few really cheap movies. Came home and finally made it through Red Eye. Yay!
Today I woke up and cleaned. Then finally I got out to get some groceries so I could feed the masses. Hosted a candle party and got some cool stuff coming now :) More red for my already very red apartment. Heeeeeeeee
Now I'm being a lazy fool.... did NOT follow my eating today at all. Cookies in the house - not good!
Back on track tomorrow for sure... I'm doing well.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Hmpf
Well I finally am an active blogger and I have no visitors :(
Not much to say tonight..... tired.... am excited to come straight home tomorrow after work as it'll be the first time all week. Yay! As long as I don't hang around late at work flirting with our cute little shipper! Yeah... he's a doll.
Not much to say tonight..... tired.... am excited to come straight home tomorrow after work as it'll be the first time all week. Yay! As long as I don't hang around late at work flirting with our cute little shipper! Yeah... he's a doll.
Life is such a roller coaster
Well.... I have had pretty much every emotion since sunday. Monday was very rough.... shed a few tears (because I'm silly like that) but was feeling better after talking to friends monday night. Tuesday was a brand new day and I felt pretty good. Was realizing that we are better as friends and I am happy he's in my life but he would have driven me crazy if we were in a relationship.
Then last night, I got a little freaky. Came home to find he's taken me off his faves list on the site we met on and taken himself off of mine. I was so hurt. Yes I'm sure it sounds downright ridiculous to the normal folk out there but we've been on them since August when we met so it hurt. I thought he was cutting off all ties with me. So I msn'd him.... no response. I thought he'd deleted me. I went into panic when he didn't respond. Was very upset but then... after about 30 mins he responded and calmed me down. It was actually a bit humorous. I'm positive he thinks I'm a freak but I promised I don't do that normally and not to worry.
So that's it about that. I feel very calm and content with this. He's a cool guy and I'm glad he's still going to be in my life :) He's great for advice which may just come in handy!
Then last night, I got a little freaky. Came home to find he's taken me off his faves list on the site we met on and taken himself off of mine. I was so hurt. Yes I'm sure it sounds downright ridiculous to the normal folk out there but we've been on them since August when we met so it hurt. I thought he was cutting off all ties with me. So I msn'd him.... no response. I thought he'd deleted me. I went into panic when he didn't respond. Was very upset but then... after about 30 mins he responded and calmed me down. It was actually a bit humorous. I'm positive he thinks I'm a freak but I promised I don't do that normally and not to worry.
So that's it about that. I feel very calm and content with this. He's a cool guy and I'm glad he's still going to be in my life :) He's great for advice which may just come in handy!
Monday, January 09, 2006
Just wanted to add....
..... that I'm okay. A lot worse has happend to me in the last 2 years. I'm not going to let one silly boy get the best of me.
And I truly hope we can remain friends...... he's funny as hell, I'll give him that.
And I truly hope we can remain friends...... he's funny as hell, I'll give him that.
By the end of this I should be She-Ra.
Well, the old saying goes "that what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger". I'm a big fan of all quotes and "sayings" as they truly all seem very relevent in my life.
So it appears #7 doesn't really have a clue why he said what he did now. Backpeddaling isn't even the word. Ah well. I put myself out there and gave it a shot. Not much more I could have done. Maybe it wasn't the greatest idea but as most of you know I don't always think before doing. I try too - I really do.... just never seems to work that way.
Think I might have scared him off. But wow - if you get scared off by that then you scare a bit too easily for me. I was fully prepared to take things slow... that's how it always was with us. Slow. I didn't like it but I was prepared for it. Now it appears it's over. Well the idea of something more is over anyways. I know that deep down he wasn't right for me but honestly I'm not looking for the One by any means. Not even close to that. Not sure when I will be to tell you the honest truth. Thought I had it once and look where that got me. But it sure would have been fun. I don't even know if I can explain it thoroughly, I just know that I should have really listened to my horoscope today.
It goes as follows:
December 26th:
You may get the impression that someone you really admire is being distant and even frosty towards you. But the celestial configuration indicates that they are probably more than a little overwhelmed by your natural warmth and enthusiasm. The truth is that they are probably very much attracted to you, but just nervous to jump into a relationship so quickly. Just give it a while!
Big red flags to back off here. Yeah.... oops!
January 8th:
You may find yourself uncharacteristically and powerfully drawn to someone whom you just can't get out of your head. The planetary atmosphere is creating a situation in which you feel you would do anything to attract their attention or get them to ask you out on a date. But you would have a better chance if you could cool off a bit; otherwise you may frighten them off.
Please note the "better chance if you could cool off a bit; otherwise you may frighten them off." Yeah.. uh huh. Oops again.
And finally my lovescope for today:
This is an ideal moment to address once and for all the questions that have been on your mind for the last few weeks. Pay particular attention to questions that touch on your sentimental life. If you are currently involved in unsatisfactory relationships, don't be afraid to leave them behind. And if you're fretting about a request
This one sort of scared me a bit... and I think it's what made me just ask him. I don't think we have an unsatisfactory relationship but I wasn't happy with not really knowing. And from what he said last week I really was hopeful for more.
I still want to talk to him and get some answers - but this always seems to be the way with me. I truly thought he was different in that he didn't shy away from telling it like it was. But he did that tonight. Couldn't even give me an honest answer which truly does stink. In the worst possible way.
We are still friends.... not sure I'm ready to not talk to him yet. We have fun and I really enjoy talking to him. Maybe I liked the idea of him? Maybe I really did like him? Maybe he did/does like me but I scared him off. Maybe oh maybe I'll never know.
Ah well, what can you do.
So it appears #7 doesn't really have a clue why he said what he did now. Backpeddaling isn't even the word. Ah well. I put myself out there and gave it a shot. Not much more I could have done. Maybe it wasn't the greatest idea but as most of you know I don't always think before doing. I try too - I really do.... just never seems to work that way.
Think I might have scared him off. But wow - if you get scared off by that then you scare a bit too easily for me. I was fully prepared to take things slow... that's how it always was with us. Slow. I didn't like it but I was prepared for it. Now it appears it's over. Well the idea of something more is over anyways. I know that deep down he wasn't right for me but honestly I'm not looking for the One by any means. Not even close to that. Not sure when I will be to tell you the honest truth. Thought I had it once and look where that got me. But it sure would have been fun. I don't even know if I can explain it thoroughly, I just know that I should have really listened to my horoscope today.
It goes as follows:
December 26th:
You may get the impression that someone you really admire is being distant and even frosty towards you. But the celestial configuration indicates that they are probably more than a little overwhelmed by your natural warmth and enthusiasm. The truth is that they are probably very much attracted to you, but just nervous to jump into a relationship so quickly. Just give it a while!
Big red flags to back off here. Yeah.... oops!
January 8th:
You may find yourself uncharacteristically and powerfully drawn to someone whom you just can't get out of your head. The planetary atmosphere is creating a situation in which you feel you would do anything to attract their attention or get them to ask you out on a date. But you would have a better chance if you could cool off a bit; otherwise you may frighten them off.
Please note the "better chance if you could cool off a bit; otherwise you may frighten them off." Yeah.. uh huh. Oops again.
And finally my lovescope for today:
This is an ideal moment to address once and for all the questions that have been on your mind for the last few weeks. Pay particular attention to questions that touch on your sentimental life. If you are currently involved in unsatisfactory relationships, don't be afraid to leave them behind. And if you're fretting about a request
This one sort of scared me a bit... and I think it's what made me just ask him. I don't think we have an unsatisfactory relationship but I wasn't happy with not really knowing. And from what he said last week I really was hopeful for more.
I still want to talk to him and get some answers - but this always seems to be the way with me. I truly thought he was different in that he didn't shy away from telling it like it was. But he did that tonight. Couldn't even give me an honest answer which truly does stink. In the worst possible way.
We are still friends.... not sure I'm ready to not talk to him yet. We have fun and I really enjoy talking to him. Maybe I liked the idea of him? Maybe I really did like him? Maybe he did/does like me but I scared him off. Maybe oh maybe I'll never know.
Ah well, what can you do.
Friday, January 06, 2006
Numerology
Me: I'm a 3. In the biggest way. I still get surprised when I see how accurate it is. I won't go into the details because when I describe the following you'll see it there.
Boy #1 is a 7. And wow is that ever accurate. He's a thinker.
3 + 7 = It's a case of opposites attracting, thinks the analytical Mr Seven, but that's not a negative enough reason for him to erase Ms. Three's phone number from his book. He might have a list of twenty reasons why this relationship can never work, but he also has a list of twenty reasons why it just might, so why toss it aside without giving it a good try? Maybe next time she won't be such a meandering chatterbox. Besides, the roses were lovely and the flirting was fun.
Three isn't so sure she should call Seven again. He wasn't dewy-eyed or warm and fuzzy when they last said good-bye. Still, she's intrigued. It was fun making Seven laugh and he talked intelligently about everything and then pointed out factors that she hadn't considered. In Three's opinion, Seven has the ability to be with anyone he wants. The question is, can she charm her way past his poise and reserve?
It could take several tries before Three and Seven get together, but the undeniable attraction makes them keep trying. When Three can pull herself away from her latest creative endeavor and when Seven decides he is more curious about Three than he first thought, they go for another test spin.
Both of you need plenty of space, and you find that you think and process information very differently. Three is an imaginative, social creature, while Seven has a few selected friends and loves to learn for the sake of knowledge.
Three wants to be happy and has an edless supply of ideas to bring variety into their lives. Seven never tires of learning and endeavors to be an expert at anything he does. While Three is the idea person, Seven quickly sizes up the scheme to see if it can work. This combination of talents turns dreams into reality.
There is so much more that is written but this was the main stuff and very accurate.
Now boy # 2 is a 9. Not nearly as exciting
3 + 9 = Ms. Three is never at a loss for words. Maybe she doesn't always say the right words, but she can fill any silence with chatter, which is why she heads up a department of divergent personality types. She is genuinely concerned about the happiness of others, and her office is a testament to a life revolving around people coupled with her own creative touches, from the framed photo sent with thanks from a prominent billionaire to the macaroni penholder from a young neice.
Three and Nine are entertainers at heart, and both genuinely like people.
Nine inspires others to reach for the stars, and Three has imaginative suggestions on how to make the trip. When they combine forces, the sky's the limit. Both need to strive for personal accolades and recogntion in addition to whatever joint projects they undertake. Nine instinctively knows this and might have to reassure and urge Three to follow his example.
This one is nice but not nearly as fitting as the first.
*sigh* oh well ..... I think it's clear who I would like something more with :)
Boy #1 is a 7. And wow is that ever accurate. He's a thinker.
3 + 7 = It's a case of opposites attracting, thinks the analytical Mr Seven, but that's not a negative enough reason for him to erase Ms. Three's phone number from his book. He might have a list of twenty reasons why this relationship can never work, but he also has a list of twenty reasons why it just might, so why toss it aside without giving it a good try? Maybe next time she won't be such a meandering chatterbox. Besides, the roses were lovely and the flirting was fun.
Three isn't so sure she should call Seven again. He wasn't dewy-eyed or warm and fuzzy when they last said good-bye. Still, she's intrigued. It was fun making Seven laugh and he talked intelligently about everything and then pointed out factors that she hadn't considered. In Three's opinion, Seven has the ability to be with anyone he wants. The question is, can she charm her way past his poise and reserve?
It could take several tries before Three and Seven get together, but the undeniable attraction makes them keep trying. When Three can pull herself away from her latest creative endeavor and when Seven decides he is more curious about Three than he first thought, they go for another test spin.
Both of you need plenty of space, and you find that you think and process information very differently. Three is an imaginative, social creature, while Seven has a few selected friends and loves to learn for the sake of knowledge.
Three wants to be happy and has an edless supply of ideas to bring variety into their lives. Seven never tires of learning and endeavors to be an expert at anything he does. While Three is the idea person, Seven quickly sizes up the scheme to see if it can work. This combination of talents turns dreams into reality.
There is so much more that is written but this was the main stuff and very accurate.
Now boy # 2 is a 9. Not nearly as exciting
3 + 9 = Ms. Three is never at a loss for words. Maybe she doesn't always say the right words, but she can fill any silence with chatter, which is why she heads up a department of divergent personality types. She is genuinely concerned about the happiness of others, and her office is a testament to a life revolving around people coupled with her own creative touches, from the framed photo sent with thanks from a prominent billionaire to the macaroni penholder from a young neice.
Three and Nine are entertainers at heart, and both genuinely like people.
Nine inspires others to reach for the stars, and Three has imaginative suggestions on how to make the trip. When they combine forces, the sky's the limit. Both need to strive for personal accolades and recogntion in addition to whatever joint projects they undertake. Nine instinctively knows this and might have to reassure and urge Three to follow his example.
This one is nice but not nearly as fitting as the first.
*sigh* oh well ..... I think it's clear who I would like something more with :)
Thursday, January 05, 2006
Boys......
Well I am on the brink of something that I am hesitant to say would be a relationship. Ack. But there are two of them - how do you like them apples?
First there is boy #1 who I met back in August. Have been smitten with him ever since but things have progressed very slowly (which is good btw) since with us spending more time together as of late. There is just something about him. There are many voices in my head saying things would never work etc.. blah blah blah... but I cannot help the attraction. He makes me laugh and if you know me at all then you know that I'm a sucker for that. I love the way I feel with him and how I get butterflies when I'm going to see him. But is it enough? Who knows. Recently I told him of said feelings, something I didn't think I would do so I am very proud of myself. And apparently he is starting to feel the same. He just takes a lot longer with things .... kind of a slow burn he is. A thinker. Thinks everything through. Basically I just need to learn some patience.
Boy #2 is already planning the future. And when this has happened in any past relationships (well those in the last year anyways) I have usually freaked out and ruined the relationship somehow. For some reason I am not freaking out. I can't stop thinking about boy #1 but #2 is really very sweet and I look forward to exploring things further.
So the problem lies in where my decision goes. Do I go for the one I'm more into or the one that's more into me? Do I hold out in hopes for boy #1 and maybe have nothing happen or do I go with the one that I could have a relationship with? Am I really ready? Hmmmmm ... so many questions.
Later tonight or tomorrow I will post what my numerology book says about each boy - numerology has been so accurate in my life so far.
First there is boy #1 who I met back in August. Have been smitten with him ever since but things have progressed very slowly (which is good btw) since with us spending more time together as of late. There is just something about him. There are many voices in my head saying things would never work etc.. blah blah blah... but I cannot help the attraction. He makes me laugh and if you know me at all then you know that I'm a sucker for that. I love the way I feel with him and how I get butterflies when I'm going to see him. But is it enough? Who knows. Recently I told him of said feelings, something I didn't think I would do so I am very proud of myself. And apparently he is starting to feel the same. He just takes a lot longer with things .... kind of a slow burn he is. A thinker. Thinks everything through. Basically I just need to learn some patience.
Boy #2 is already planning the future. And when this has happened in any past relationships (well those in the last year anyways) I have usually freaked out and ruined the relationship somehow. For some reason I am not freaking out. I can't stop thinking about boy #1 but #2 is really very sweet and I look forward to exploring things further.
So the problem lies in where my decision goes. Do I go for the one I'm more into or the one that's more into me? Do I hold out in hopes for boy #1 and maybe have nothing happen or do I go with the one that I could have a relationship with? Am I really ready? Hmmmmm ... so many questions.
Later tonight or tomorrow I will post what my numerology book says about each boy - numerology has been so accurate in my life so far.
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Bad bad blogger I am....
Okay. So maybe this blogging isn't really for me. Honestly I have the time, I'm always on my computer for goodness sakes - you'd think I could at least do a quick post here or there. But alas that isn't really the case. Oh well, it's not like there's a whole lot of people reading anyways - it's more for me.
Had a wonderful christmas, was lovely to be with family this year. They drive me nuts sometimes but I love them dearly. Kids were adorable and liked what I bought them so I'm happy.
Drive up north was nice too.... my little car surprised me. She did great!
And now it's a new year.... yay! I have a feeling I might be embarking on a relationship soon.... not saying more than that but for once I don't think I'm going to freak out. :)
Had a wonderful christmas, was lovely to be with family this year. They drive me nuts sometimes but I love them dearly. Kids were adorable and liked what I bought them so I'm happy.
Drive up north was nice too.... my little car surprised me. She did great!
And now it's a new year.... yay! I have a feeling I might be embarking on a relationship soon.... not saying more than that but for once I don't think I'm going to freak out. :)
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